I TOOK THE BLADE OFF MY SHELF AGAIN NOW IT FUCKING HURTS THAT YOUR GONE//I THOUGHT YOU WERE OKAY WITH THE SMILE YOU MADE BUT YOUR HEART STOPPED BEATING AT DAWN//I GUESS I PROVED MYSELF RIGHT BUT YOU LOST IT FOR THE NIGHT AND NOW I GUESS ITS FUCKING OVER//CLEAN ME OUT FOR THE DAYS YOU KILLED NOW NO NIGHTS HAVE LEFT ME SOBER//YOU WERE MY BEST FRIEND AND YOU STOPPED BREATHING WHY THE FUCK DO YOU THINK ID BE FINE//WHEN YOU STOP BREATHING YOU TOOK A PEICE OF ME BECAUSE I WOULD ALWAYS TREAT YOU LIKE YOU WERE MINE//LOOK AT WHERE MY LIFE WENT WITH ALL THESE PILLS AND POTIONS. TO FIND WHERE THE HELL DID YOU GO//RUNNING FROM YOUR PLACE TO MINE BECAUSE I CANT LEAVE YOU THOUGH//I GRIP AT WHATEVER PEICES YOU LEFT AND HOLDING THE SHREDS OF MY HEART// BECAUSE YOU TOOK IT AND TORE IT FUCKING APART//AND STAND THERE AS I YELL TO THE MONSTER I BECAME WHEN I LOST YOU//YOU USED TO KILL THOSE VOICES IN MY HEAD BUT NOW THERE TELLING ME WHAT TO DO//BUT I GUESS ALL GOOD THINGS MUST COME TO AN END AND I WAS JUST ANOTHER PEICE THAT BROKE DOWN//PAINT THE PAIN AWAY STICK IT YOU BITCH AND NOW DONT I DARE MAKE A SOUND//SO WHEN I WENT TO YOUR GRAVE AND CRIED SOME MORE LOOKING BACK ON WHATS TV SHOW WE USED TO SEE //I THOUGHT TO A CONVERSATION, I HAD WITH MY MOMMY WHEN I WAS NOT STRONG ENOUGH TO BE//AND THOSE WORDS SLICED THROUGH ME SLASHING MY VEINS ADDING TO THE PAIN OF WHAT WAS ALREADY FUCKING DONE//BECAUSE WHEN I ASKED "WHY DO THE BEST PEOPLE DIE" SHE SAID "WHEN YOU PICK A FLOWER FROM THE GARDEN. YOU ALWAYS PICK THE BEST ONE.
"I deserved to die but I've already been dipped in with suicidal thoughts."
-R.M-
YOU ARE READING
Fix me.
PoesieThis is where i escape. This is where i spend my days, in between thoughts about suicide and what else I would do to be held in your arms.
