The Baker's Baby

9 - Cocoa Powder

It's been about a day since lunch went downhill for me at Nicole's house, and I haven't tried to contact either of them. 

Until now. 

Asher's out working and Miles opened the Bakery this morning so I don't have to go in until this afternoon, this also gives me a chance to let Kaden have a nap before taking him with me. 

I was sitting on the couch with Kaden, waiting for him to fall asleep when our quiet morning was interrupted by a phone call from Nicole; I'm honestly a little surprised she didn't try to call me yesterday the second I left. 

"Hi Addison, I know it's early so I don't want to keep you long."

"Hey Nicole, I was actually meaning to call you later so this is perfect really." I pause to see if she's going to respond, when she doesn't I keep talking. "I just wanted to apologize for leaving so abruptly, it was rude of me but I hope you can understand."

"Oh don't even worry about it, dear. I was actually calling to see how you were doing and give you some news."

I had a feeling what she was going to say and was suddenly glad I was already sitting down. 

"I spoke with Justin and he told me he plans on staying in town, at the house actually, until he has his own place; he also wants to speak to you. All I said was that I would speak to you about it first."

Though I saw it coming the words still shocked me for a moment. 

"Well thank you for letting me know, can I just have some time to think and I'll get back to you?" I shift and hold Kaden's sleepy form closer to me. 

"Yes, of course, dear, take all the time you need."

We say our goodbyes and I slump back onto the couch, making sure not to wake Kaden up before we have to leave.

I know I'm going to have to speak with him eventually, but I know what comes with that conversation and I'm not so sure I want to face that reality right now. 

Instead, I push that inevitable meeting to the back of my head and focus on things that don't cause a feeling of existential dread. I rock my son to sleep and fixate on the show currently playing on the tv. Apparently, we're learning to say 'please' and 'thank you to others. 

Later on, at the bakery, I'm pretty much working on autopilot until closing when Miles pulls me aside. 

"Please don't take this the wrong way but is everything alright? You haven't really seemed like yourself today."

"Yeah, everything's alright don't worry, just a bit of a rough night." I send a small smile his way to ease his mind, and technically I'm not lying either. Last night was rough, Miles will just conclude that it was because of Kaden and not his father. 

After locking up with Miles, Kaden and I head to my parent's house for dinner and hopefully, they can give me some advice on my little predicament. 

It isn't until dessert when I bring up my newfound situation and hope to get some helpful points of view, unlikely but I might as well try.

As I tell my parents everything I can see their faces contorting but thankfully holding back their comments until I'm done explaining everything. 

"Obviously I have to tell him about Kaden now that he's here, but I'm scared. There are so many things that could go wrong, and things that probably will go wrong. I need help."

"Sweetie I can't tell you what to do, you know that."

"I know that mom, I just don't know how to bring it up to him. And the thought of making Nicole keep that secret while he's sleeping under her roof makes me sick." I bring an oblivious Kaden closer to my chest in hopes he'll bring me some comfort.

"Well, Nicole did say he wanted to talk right? So call him up and plan a time and place to talk, on your terms." That surprisingly helpful tidbit actually came from my Dad. I tried to hide the surprise on my face but I don't think it worked.

After hearing what my Dad had to say on the matter I looked down at my beautiful baby boy only to see him smiling back at me, and I know what I have to do. 

I don't want the decision to keep him from his father and the possibility of having Kaden resent me for that on my conscience. 

Now when to have this difficult conversation is the real question.

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