Paralyzed // Solby (Completed)

Chapter 93

"Please Victor, please sleep," I begged as I tried to put Victor to sleep, he was crying also so I am trying to calm him down.

It's been a few days since we came back from the hospital. Victor was having trouble settling in and that means he is having trouble sleeping.

I felt tears brimming in my eyes as I tried calming him down, nothing was helping.

"Sam, help." I whimpered looking at him helplessly.

He nodded before grabbing him and started to rock him.

"You fed him?" He asked as I nodded while rubbing my shaky hands on my face.

"I-I burped him, changed him...I did e-everything." I mumbled and tears brimmed my eyes as I felt being a failure bubble up in my chest.

It hurt me that I couldn't calm victor down and knows what's wrong.

Even though I should know what's up.

"Okay...okay, I don't see anything wrong." He said and victor cried even more causing me to flinch from the outburst.

"Shh...shh, it's okay." Sam cooed as Victor cries died down.

"He probably just wanted you more..." I mumbled with a small chuckle as Victor's cries turn into whimpers.

"Colby..." He said and trailed off and I shook my head.

"It's okay Sam," I said giving him a small smile.

"It's no big deal," I said again trying to convince myself.

It wasn't a big deal.

Well, I hope it wasn't. It did hurt me that Victor mostly wanted Sam, but kids always had favorites.

By the looks of it-Sam was his favorite.

I wasn't.

But that was okay.

"Colby, I'll take care of Victor. You can go to bed." He said sending me a small smile and I nodded.

I go back into Sam and i's room (btw Colby is still in a wheelchair.) looking at the mirror.

I looked exhausted; Victor has been keeping us up ever since we brought him home. I wanted to sleep but I can't, when I want to, I just stay awake.

I noticed how my skin looked pale. I don't think I haven't eaten anything these past few days.

I always say that I wasn't hungry, which I wasn't lying about that. If I wasn't hungry...I didn't have to eat.

I sigh before going onto the bed, staring at the ceiling.

I didn't know how long I was staring at the ceiling for but before I knew it-Sam came back into the room.

"Finally got him back to sleep," Sam said and laid next to me and I smiled softly as he pulled me into him.

I snuggled my head into his chest, letting out a sigh in content.

Sam ended up sleeping a few minutes later, well me-I ended up being awake the whole night.

When it was light out, I heard Victor's cries in the nursery.

I sigh before somehow managing to get off of Sam and to put myself in my wheelchair. I then went into the nursery so I could calm down Victor.

"Hey, bubba." I cooed and grabbed him; he was definitely heavier meaning that he had an accident.

I changed him into a cute onesie, that had little elephants on it, and let me tell you, he looked adorable with it.