euphoria imagines

your role in euphoria as rue and gia's sister

TW FOR EATING DISORDER AND RAPE!!

~you are younger than rue and older than gia by 2 years

~your role starting off with maddy (who took you under her wing your freshman year and forming a sisterly bond) driving you to the er after a severe incident leaving you with major ptsd

~keeping it a secret from your family because it was around the same time rue overdosed

~spending most days on the roof of your house, cloudgazing and maladaptive daydreaming

~with a lot of persuasion from maddy, you go to mckay's party

~her wanting to put you in a gorgeous two piece dress, but politely refusing, opting for denim and a white sweater

~spending most of the party on the roof, smoking weed you had stolen from rue

~ditching school every day when it starts back up again, and going through your mom's laptop, deleting attendance emails

~spending every day at the orchard and almost every night hopping from maddy's to lexi and cassie's

~not going to the carnival because *people* and *emotions* 

~maddy calling you up and just hugging her and reassuring her for the entire night

~the week before halloween, coming back home and getting in a fight with rue, who noticed your absence from her life

~almost revealing the incident, but locking yourself in your room before she could emotionally manipulate you to talk about it

~rue going full detective (cigarettes and all) to find out what happened

 ~maddy (once again) convincing you to go to the halloween party, and prying for you to dress up as catherine tramell from basic instinct (with much arguing and hype up)

~letting her do your makeup in a pretty white graphic liner and jewels covering your undereye

~rue letting herself momentarily forget about her investigation until she spots you talking with cassey and the epiphany strikes her 

~the thigh gap that you have is sickly, and if you lost any more fat on your arms, she could see your bones popping out when you bent them (*)

~she was on her way to talk to you, but the second part of the epiphany struck her, making her not want to make a scene (besides she was being dragged away by jules)

~when you do come home, rue and you get into a huge blowout (making gia scared and calling mom)

~rue forcefully taking your sweater off of you and you screaming and fighting back (giving her a good bruised rib or two)

~accidentally calling her your offender's name and revealing what had happened (*)

~mom witnessing you crying on the floor and rue screaming at you when she got home

~locking yourself in your room again when getting a panic attack when mom started to scream at both you and rue

~you temporarily staying at maddy's and being each other's emotional support because you guys are royally fucked up

~suggesting going to the dance with maddy as your date (platonically)

~her being better for the period of getting ready her in her gorgeous gold and diamond number and you in a silky tea length lavender dress and a soft matte lavender eyeshadow

~helping distract maddy from nate and his date and her distracting you from rue by dancing and helping each other laugh

~nate eventually making her dance and leaving you alone

~seeing rue and jules leave and going to the bathroom

~talking with a very euphoric kat (who had just kissed ethan) and getting one of your dizzy spells

~ending up puking (which hasn't happened in over a year) and kat helping you clean up

~fainting and banging your head on the counter

~yeah, that's how season one ends for you :/

(*) i just wanted to put a quick note to say i give you all my empathy if you are suffering from an eating disorder or have been sexually assaulted or raped. this show brings a lot of the horrible things to light, and i saw they didn't add anything like this. i wanted to bring this to light and show that people have to deal with this. i do want to make an imagine based off this, it will most likely be the next chapter, i just wanted to give you a heads up. 

if you are suffering from an eating disorder or ptsd from being sexually assaulted or raped please bring this to light to at least one person. as i wrote in this headcannon, this version of yourself doesn't tell anyone except maddy (who does come off as a very paternal/sisterly character), and while yes she does have those nicer moments that rue and her family does have in the show, not telling anyone, or not taking responsibility will leave you royally fucked up in the long run

if you ever do need someone, please pm me, don't hesitate.