Against The Tides

Chapter 12

A/n - This is a special chapter from Joshua's pov to help everyone understand his importance in the story! Hope you enjoy it!^^

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Joshua's Pov -

Xander and I were in the same university, but in different majors, he was in Science major and I was in the History major and since there were different campuses for different majors, we rarely ever saw each other at school.

But unfortunately, even when we did see each other in school, he'd pretend not to know me. I was openly gay and everyone in school knew but... He was still closeted and I understood where he was coming from pretending not to know me.

He was popular too and his reputation would probably be ruined if people saw the two of us together and boy... The rumours would spread like wildfire.

I was happy as long as I could hang out with him both as a friend and a fuck buddy.

But a small part of me.......longed for more. Something more than just fucking around. Don't get me wrong, the sex was amazing.......but it just wasn't enough anymore.......

Although Xander didn't know it yet... I liked him... As more than a friend. Whenever he called me over, my heart would skip a beat. Every time we kissed, my heart would race and there'd be a billion butterflies in my stomach.

From his eyes to his voice to his build... He was perfect... And more than that, just my type too. God... He was handsome and a really good friend of mine.

I trusted him and he trusted me. We were closer than most friends... And I thought that would be enough... But lately, I kept longing for more... Longing for a romantic relationship with him and not just a sexual one.

I sighed. I couldn't hold back my feelings for him anymore. As much as I tried to push them away, they always came flooding back every time he kissed me or every time we hung out.

So I made up my mind that today, today was the day I was going to confess to him and tell him exactly how I felt about him.

The worst that could happen was... He'd end our fwb relationship... But I was ready to take that risk because there was a small.......a very small chance he might like me back too.

All I could do was hope. Just hope that he may be interested in me for more than sex. We had known each other for more than a year and he even told me I was his closest friend and he was thankful for that.

Just as I had been thinking about him, my phone started ringing, jerking me out of my thoughts.

I checked to see who it was and it was him. My face lit up and my heart picked up the pace, I felt a little nervous but picked up anyway.

"Hey," He said in his sexy, husky voice, making me blush ever so slightly.

"Hey," I said as I normally would. I didn't want to give anything away yet. It was all too soon for him to be getting hints. I wanted the timing to be perfect, and I wanted to confess to him face to face.

"You free right now?" He asked in a casual tone.

"Mhmmm- I was just laying on my bed thinking about things," I said with a chuckle.