Lost

First time

(Damians bedroom:) Kay continue)

"Kenz?" I don't respond "Kenzie please do something or say something" I just stare at him. I don't know what to say or do right now. He just told me that he trains people to hurt people for pleasure and my mind is so ... So ... I don't know. I don't know if I'm confused or hurt or what not. "I need to think" he nods and he has a sad look in his eyes. "I understand.. I'll be in my room after I clean up if you want to talk to me" he gets up and starts cleaning the dishes, I go up to my room and close the door, and turn on some music. How do I handle this? I mean is he going to do that to me? Well he said he wouldn't do anything I don't want him to. I sit on my bed and hold a pillow as I think. I'm not mad and im not really hurt or disgusted. I'm just shocked. I really like him.... I think I love him, but I don't think that he feels the same. I mean he trains people to listen to anything that a dominant says and he trains the dominants on how and what to do. I get an idea and grab my phone from one of my bags. I go on google and search up BDSM (Damian mentioned that) and I start reading.
An hour later I finish reading and I understand that there's safety procedures and contracts you have to sign in order to do this. I feel better about it knowing that nobody gets really hurt hurt except in the pleasure sense or when they get punished but I don't really mind, besides he said that they took top notch care of the clients. I take a deep breath and get up off my bed and turn off my phone. I walk out of my room and walk to Damians room and knock lightly on the door, "come in" I open the door to see him laying on his bed with puffy tear stained eyes. "Your leaving right?" He asks in an almost whisper. I walk in and sit on his bed "what makes you think that?" He sits up looking down at his hands, he looks so scared and lost. "Because everyone does" I hug him tightly. "Im not leaving you, I don't see anything wrong with that lifestyle and I read up on it. It seems pretty interesting and I understand that there's safety procedures and contracts to sign and it's different but I don't see anything really bad about it. I told you im very accepting and besides I really like you" I trail off and I blush, he smiles then next thing I know I'm pinned to the bed with him in top of me and he's smirking and im laughing a bit. "Kenzie I need you in my life. And I promise if you don't want to be in that lifestyle you don't have to, I just train people or rather my clubs do. I'm very flexible in that area." I smile. "Well I can try it. I'm very flexible too" he smirks and kisses me. "I want you so bad" he practically growls in my ear witch makes my breathing hitch and my body tingle. "Damian I want you too" he smiles and kisses me deeply, then moves down kissing my jawline and down to my chin. I moan at the feeling, he smiles and then kisses my lips again, he looks deep into my eyes. "Kenz are you a virgin?" I blush, jeez does he have to be so straight forward with it? "Y-yes" I say almost in a whisper. "Good I want to make you mine in every way possible" I smile "and I want to be yours" he smiles and kisses me his hands traveling down to my waist and his lips to my neck. "Get undressed baby" he whispers in my ear before nipping my ear lobe and then he gets off of me. I stand up and I take off his shirt exposing my bare chest and then I pull the pants down along with my panties, I blush and look down. "Babe your gorgeous you shouldn't be embarrassed" he stands up and hugs me then backs up taking his shirt off exposing his perfect chest then he takes his pants off along with his boxers, his erection is huge and I blush way more than normal. "I love your blush baby you look so cute" he says while smiling and I bite my lip, smirking he goes behind me wrapping his arms around my waist, pressing himself against me and I bite my lip harder. "God your skin is so soft" I smile and blush. He kisses my neck and his hand starts caressing my breast, his fingers pulling at my nipple and I moan at the new feeling. His other hand slowly goes down my stomach and then down further "baby I want you to lye down okay" I nod and I lay down on the bed on my back. "Fold your knees up" I do as im told, "good girl now spread your knees apart" I blush but I do it. He smiles then grabs a little foil packet from a drawer next to me, he opens it and rolls the condom on, then he situates himself between me, kinda hovering over me, his arms on each side of me. "Baby this might hurt so I want you to let me know when to move okay?" I nod he's so sweet. I'm so nervous but yet excited too. He smiles and kisses me before I start to feel him enter me, I arch my back as he fills me up fully and I wince as he tears through my virginity. He waits a minute. "How does it feel?" "Different" "good different or bad different?" "Definitely good different" he smiles "You okay?" I nod now that the pain subsided "yeah you can move now" I smile and he smiles back. "Okay but I'll try to take it easy, and if you want me to stop just say so. I don't want to hurt you" I smile "okay" he smile before moving out slowing then back in, I moan and he moans too. "F-faster" he nods and then he's going out and then rams back in and my arms wrap around his back and I dig my nails in as he moves as I get tiny shock waves of pain and pleasure. We're both in a fit of moans and I feel a weird yet amazing feeling bubble up inside me "cum for me baby" he says suductively in my ear between groans and that tips me over the edge and I reach my climax and next thing I know he's calling out my name as he reaches his too. He slides out of me and lays next to me, both of us breathing heavily. He takes the condom off throwing it in the waste basket and then cuddles me. "Babe that was amazing" I smile as he plays with my hair "I agree" he smiles "are you sore?" I nod. "Well you'll be okay. Do you want anything for it?" I shake my head giggling "no I don't mind it" he smiles and then pulls a blanket over us. "Get some sleep babe" I nod and I drift off to sleep cuddling into his warm chest, feeling safe.