𝐈𝐓𝐒 𝐁𝐄𝐄𝐍 𝐀 𝐖𝐄𝐄𝐊 since my disastrous release party, but i've forgotten about it now. my birthday is next, and i haven't been thinking about it at all. i've been really preoccupied with some other thoughts.
18.
but back to those other thoughts i've been having.
nessa.
we've been hanging out a lot more, away from the group, and my feelings for her have done nothing but grown. i don't know if i should tell her because it could ruin our friendship. and being around her, in her presence feels magical. makes my day better but i just don't know if she feels the same way.
𝐍𝐞𝐬𝐬𝐚's 𝐏𝐎𝐕 ever since that kiss on our camping trip i've looked at kay differently, in a way where i guess you could say i have feelings for her. i really like her, but i don't think she feels the same.
avani has been trying to convince me that i should tell kay how i feel because she might feel the same way. "i don't know, vani. it could ruin our friendship, and she might not talk to me again which is my worst nightmare."
"you keep saying that but you won't know until you ask." she replied over facetime
"i really don't know what to say to her, she makes me nervous." i said
there was a knock at the door, as i rose from my bed and walked downstairs as avani explained that if i don't admit to her my feelings, i'll never know.
"bitch. i won best new artist yesterday. i fucking won a vma." kay said. she was so excited, and it made me happy to see her happy.
i hugged her "again?" avani said over the phone "i'm so happy for you"
"im so proud kay" i added
"hi avani" kay waved at my phone kissing her middle and index finger then pressing it to my camera.
"ness.. i need to call you later i have to mentally prepare to meet kay in a bit and process what just happened" and with that she hung up
"i'm so happy for you" i hugged her once more and she hugged me tightly
"come on" she said pulling away from the hug pulling me out the door "i wanna dye my hair before i meet your friends"
𝐊𝐚𝐲's 𝐏𝐎𝐕 "i just don't want you to over work your self" nessa said to me
"i'm not i'm fine" i replied "i just think this song is more special than the album. this has more meaning" my eyes glancing from her to the road.
i typed in my password and the gates opened "i'll never get over this" nessa said, and i laughed.
𝐓𝐡𝐢𝐫𝐝 𝐏𝐞𝐫𝐬𝐨𝐧 they got inside and went into kays bathroom
they talked about the grammys and were talking about ginny & georgia
"lana del rey is literally our savior of sadness" kay said "she made sadness. samantha can suck my dick"
the two grabbed their blow dryers, and started to dry their hair.
"and oh my god ginny is like the fucking worst character ever. she never appreciates ANYTHING that georgia does for her." kay begins to go on a rant while nessa lets her talk because she loves when kay is passionate about something, even if it's as meaningless as a character in a show.
"like she literally gives you so much more than what she had growing up and you STILL find a way to be mad, it's bullshit."
"and hunter is like the most annoying person ever, and he can't sing for shit." nessa added
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