Yoda's Diary [Satzu]

Painful Birthday🐿️

READ IT AT YOUR OWN RISK 🐰🐰

⚠️⚠️ Grammatical error and typos along ahead ⚠️⚠️
.
.
.
.

I wipe my tears and breathe deeply. Tzuyu had done something for my birthday two years ago she wanted to surprise me but where did she go?

'Tzuyu why you left me? You didn't even tell me your reason. You just left' I thought and put aside the diary before climb out from my bed

I walk over my window staring the dark outside with my tears. I never cry for her since the day she left but now I can't help...

I'm mad at her I hate her I'll never forgive that girl

The memories of two years ago flash in my mind

"Hey! Where are you? You forgot something special today" I said to Dahyun via phone call. I was heading to Jihyo-unnie's inn

"Oh c'mon Sana just come here quickly" she dropped the call

" Really? You dropped me a call?"I hissed in frustration. I arrive at the apartment. Jihyo-unnie held my hand and pushed me to sit down on her couch

I Frowned when I noticed them looking at me with a tease way

What is their problem?

"Yah where's is that Yoda" Bunny said in annoyance

"I can't contact her"Mina said in a worried tone

I wasn't aware of what's going on so I asked them but no one answer me. I'm getting anxious here. So I stood up and yell

"Hey! What's going on?" I repeat and this time they were all looking at me then averted their eyes I feel like it wasn't my thing to know

"C'mon tell me" I said calmly but deep inside I was fcking worried

"Yoda!" Nayeon-unnie said that makes my heart beat faster

"What about her?" I shivered and walk near to them. I feel something bad on this!!

Maybe they were just playing around making me worried then in the end they are just surprising me but no I can't feel that way

"She's not answering our calls and texts. She supposed to be here before you"Jihyo-unnie seriously said

" No maybe traffic?"I consoled myself

" Traffic? Stupid reason!"Dahyun blurted out and fiddled with her phone " arrgghh she still not answering!"

Hours passed but still no presence of Yoda. Jihyo-unnie decided to take me and all at the backyard.

I held my mouth when I saw their surprised I thought they forgot my birthday but the table catch my attention. I felt like someone's gonna date me today

I formed a smile. Yoda must be done this and it was confirmed by Nayeon-unnie

"Yoda asked that to us !"

"She is so excited to surprise you she even slept here just for this"Jihyo-unnie sadly said

I don't know what should I feel happy because Tzuyu done this for me or not because she's not here yet

"Don't tell me she's going to c--" I wasn't able to finish my line when Jeongyeon-unnie called us and we went to her

"One of my friends texted me about Tzuyu" she said

I felt chill down to my stomach. Dahyun hugged me left side. "Sana"

"W-what h-happened t-to h-her?" I stuttered I felt Dahyun's hands caressing my arms

"No" I was confused of Jeong's answer

"What no? Can you please tell us already?" Chaeyoung impatiently said. Mina shot her a glare

"She went to the airport" Jeongyeon heaved. I shake my head not believing her

"No..she can't go there without us knowing it!"I half yelled and fish out my phone. With a shaking hands I tried to call her but her network is busy or out of reach

My tears already come out my legs were weak and my heart is aching. My head, I feel like cracking

"No!" I uttered before everything went black

" SANAAAA!!!!"

I woke up with unfamiliar room when I roam around my gaze I found my friends sleeping at the couch huddling together

I was looking for a certain person but unfortunately she wasn't here

Why did you leave? Where are you going? Did I do wrong to you or you're really annoyed at me so you just left to get away from me

So many questions running through my mind that only Tzuyu who can answer

"What do you think?" I was back in reality when my mom asked me abruptly I was in a daze of thinking about the past, I didn't even notice my mom entered my room

I turn to her and she smile cupping my cheeks

"Mom" I smiled and hugged her

"Why are you crying lady?" She guided me back to my bed and we sat there

"excited?"she added. I nodded

Her eyes darted to the diary and her smile fades away replaced by a worried face

I loosened myself and squeezed her hand to get her attention again and I force a smile

"I can't wait for tomorrow mom!" I uttered showing her that I'm excited

" Squirrel!"I got my serious expression when I heard that name again

"M-mom!" I stammered because that was the first time she addressed me Squirrel after two years

I asked them to not calling me Squirrel because that name remind me of her

"You're having a second thought, aren't you?" I didn't response cause she was actually right

" Squirr--" I cutted her off

"Mom please. I'm not ,...I love Mark and he's the only person I want to be with forever" I said firmly

She pick the diary and like Tofu she placed it on my lap

" You can fool everyone but not me... I know you still love her"she trailed off " baby no matter what is your decision I'll support you because as a mother I just want the best for you"she held my hand and wipe my tears softly

" Choose where you can find your happiness, choose the person you you truly love" she stood up and went to the doorway

" Baby we're just here!" She said before wholly went outside

My phone vibrated and I saw Mark's message

Love M,

I can't wait to see you walking down the aisle💞   I love you

I cry more. I feel like I'm being unfair to him I love him, yes I love him but I can't compare it to how much I love Tzuyu!!

"You should marry him Sana, you love Mark!" I said to myself

He came to my life when I needed Tzuyu. He made me smile, happy and open my heart for love again. Because of him I afford to saved myself from drowning and heartbreak. He did so much to me

And now I'm thinking twice?. I love him but it can't surpass how much I love Yoda even if she hurt me I still love her

I don't know what to do. I can't leave Mark I owe him a lot...

So many things running through my mind but I managed to open the diary again

Maybe I can find answers upon reading her diary again..

.
.
.
.

Dear Diary,