The clouds of nowhere

What, where, why, how

She laid in her bed, looking up at the ceiling, wordless. Even her mind was blank, only the mess of her mother's words were storming in her head. 'Hopeless'... 'Has no friends'... 'No boys'...'No interests'...

She looked at her phone. 2 AM, and still can't sleep. That's when she saw the new post of Layla's. 'Shifting between realities is real! You can't say it's not true till you didn't try it!'

She stared at the post for some minutes, before holding up the phone, setting the timer for tomorrow morning, and turning off the phone. She laid in her bed and closed her eyes, waiting for the magic to happen.

...but nothing happened. "Wait how do I even shift-" She grabbed her phone again, looking it up at google. 

As she was reading about it, she raised her eyebrows "wow, this is harder than I thought..."

"So first I gotta know where I am right now, what world I'm in, and why do I want to shift, what is bothering me in life, what am I grateful in this life and why am I judging myself..." She looked around in her room, thinking. "Well... I'm in the reality I was born in and my life kinda sucks. I'm a nobody, even tho I deserve love! My parents think nothing of me, even tho I'm exciting! I'm grateful I can be myself!" she smiled and looked at her phone for the next step.

"What do I want? What am I wanting to become?" she looked into her mirror. "Well, I want to be someone other people love, and know about! I want to be loved and praised!"

"I need to know what I'm done with and what I will commit.." she closed her eyes. "I'm done with...my homework. I'm done with...dinner. I'm done with...my daily routines....I will wake up tomorrow, go to school, do my homework..."

"I need to...drop my identity..? I can change my world and myself and everyone around with my being...So like...I need to make a new me...? Well, I have to think about who I want to be...I want to be an unique person, that people like and adore! I want to be extra, pretty, wanted, needed! I want to be smart, pretty, funny and cute!"

"And now I have to become this...me I created. So I need to close my eyes..." she laid down and closed her eyes. "And manifest myself into the world where I want to be..." and after 30 seconds, she was laying there, still, going into another world... who knows where...