Young love ends in hearts broken

Part 2 Uh oh!

I thought he was just running late but it had got to the point where I sat there for about an hour and still no show so I just went next door and knocked, no response

So I just came in

He was laying on his couch asleep, pale, dark circles.
"Omg! Are you ok?!"

"Huh!? I-im ok"

His voice sounded broken, slurring his words

"Are you hungover!?"

"No.."

"YES YOU ARE!"

"Look I'm sorry"

"SORRY!? WHY DID YOU DO THIS!?"

"It's one simple hangover"

"SIMPLE!?"

"Yeah"

"HOW DID YOU EVEN GET HOME!?"

"Driving.."

"DRIVING!? ARE YOU INSANE YOU COULD HAVE DIED! YOU'RE SO STUPID"

"I ALREADY SAID I'M SORRY, I CAN'T DO MUCH MORE, I DID IT, IT'S DONE AND LOOK IM FINE THERE'S NOTHING MORE TO IT NOW CAN YOU CALM THE FUCK DOWN AND START THINKING OF OTHERS? LIKE MAYBE WHY I DID IT? YOUR A SELFISH BITCH"

He said with a livid look on his face trying to hide his pain

"W-what?"

I said with tears rolling down my cheek

"I DON'T CARE IF I MADE YOU CRY, YOU DON'T EVEN KNOW WHY I DID IT AND YOU JUST STARTED ASSUMING THINGS AND YELLING AND THAT DIDN'T MAKE IT ANY BETTER"

"I- I'm sorry"

"IT'S TOO LATE"

He said storming out the door

I had fucked up

I had finally got the guy I had dreamt of and I had messed up

I wasn't thinking of others and I spoke without thought.

"As she slid her back down the wall her knees gave out and she realized that, that was it. She had lost her world. But in reality her world was just a boy who had given up. And she was just a girl with too much hope in her eyes."

I couldn't get that quote out of my head as I fell to the ground crying, that really was my life right now.

"I screwed everything up"

Is all I could repeat as I cried myself to sleep

I layed in bed, not having the motivation or courage to move

Hoping he would forgive me and come cuddle, missing his warmth, missing his smile. Missing him. I just cried. That's all I could do.

"Why do I do this?"

I asked myself

"Why do I ruin everything good that enters my life"

I had taken the day off work so I could try to recollect myself and regain motivation

I texted Shinso

Kia

Look, I'm so sorry about what I said because I didn't take your feelings into consideration. What I said was wrong and I'm sorry, my father was an alcoholic and when it comes to alcohol I freak out, I never meant to hurt you. I hope you can forgive me.

[sent at 1:00pm]

I was left on opened

I knew I messed up because he was ignoring me, he never ignored me.