Odd Text (Eremin)

Chapter 12

August 17th

Armin (2:35 pm)
Oh, you responded. I didn't think you would.

Armin (2:35 pm)
Not that I am complaining! I'm glad you responded.

Armin (2:36 pm)
Really glad, actually.

Armin (2:36 pm)
Sorry, I think I'm rambling.

Armin (2:37 pm)
Can you give me a minute? Or ten?

Armin (2:37 pm)
I need to apologize and explain myself to you.

Armin (2:38 pm)
I need a moment to collect my thoughts.

Eren (2:47 pm)
Okay

Armin (3:02 pm)
Thank you, Eren for responding. I wasn't sure if you wanted to hear back from me, but I do owe you an explanation and an apology. This is not an excuse but a reason as to why I acted the way I did. The day when you texted me with the words... you know the ones, right? I accused you of playing a joke on me and I did so because it reminded me of the boys that used to pick on me in high school and middle school, as you know. That was part of the reason why I did what I did, but I do have another reason. I talked with Ymir about this and she pointed out something that I didn't even realize before. It was the need to avoid strong emotions. I don't think I've been very subtle with my... feelings. At least, I don't think so, since people around me have been pointing them out long before I could even place a name on them. You may not have meant those words in the way that I...thought you did, but in the end I was too afraid of the feelings I have for you. It startled me just how strongly I felt seeing that phrase from you and I "ran away". I avoided you. For that, I do apologize.

Armin (3:05 pm)
I noticed you kept trying to connect with me again...You were still there for me even when I left you. Eren, I am sorry for everything. I understand if you would want to cut ties with me after this.

Eren (3:23 pm)
Did you know that i cried in a mcdonalds parking lot and used a cheeseburger as a napkin for my tears?

Eren (3:24 pm)
At a burger kings parking lot too

Eren (3:24 pm)
Many parking lots actually

Armin (3:25 pm)
No, I didn't know that.

Eren (3:47 pm)
I missed you. I didnt want to give up on you. I wanted to be there for you but you wouldnt let me

Eren (3:48 pm)
It felt like a breakup lol

Eren (3:49 pm)
Even annie was worried

Armin (3:52 pm)
Mikasa's girlfriend.

Eren (3:59 pm)
You remembered

Armin (4:05 pm)
Of course, how could I forget?

Armin (4:06 pm)
Despite what I've done, you are very important to me, Eren.

Eren (4:11 pm)
I believe you

Eren (4:12 pm)
But it did feel like you didnt care about me

Armin (4:12 pm)
I can see why you might've felt that way.

Armin (4:14 pm)
It was selfish on my part, but I do care. I admit, I have trouble showing it at times.

Eren (4:16 pm)
When you text me about your day or when you tell me cool science facts, it feels like you do care because you want to share a little part of you to me

Eren (4:17 pm)
I dont want to make you feel guilty Armin

Eren (4:17 pm)
I just

Eren (4:18 pm)
I just hope you see how much i care about you