im giving u a big trigger warning bc in this chapter there are going to be triggered scenes such as rape and self harm ...
also this is going to be really sad so if ur in a good mood skip this
"stop it billie" i scream as she throws a glass of water through the kitchen. it crashes on a wall and breaks into a million pieces.
"Shut up! Dont tell me what to do!" she screams and i can see it in her eyes. Something i've seen a lot lately. Her anger. At the beggining our relationship was perfect, she treates me like a princess, even a queen maybe. But recently she's been getting home drunk. She treats me like a fucking slave. Like she doesnt love me anymore..
i closed my eyes hard in fear that the glass is going to hit me. Luckily, it didn't. I crash down on the ground, crying hard. Its always like this, everyday.
me and billie, its like we dont have that connection anymore...
i have my eyes closed in fear that billie will do something. But all i hear is footsteps walking past me into the living room.
While i cry on the floor, i hear billie turn the tv on.
I open my eyes, as i wipe my tears away, and stand up. I take a deep breath as i walk into the living room where billie watches something on the tv.
i slowly sit beside her. She doesn't look at me, like im invisible.
"billie?" i whisper.
no reaction
"billie?" i try again
"what?" she says annoyed, still looking at the tv.
"im sorry" i say in hope she would say something
like 'no dont be sorry baby' but that wasnt even close to what she said
"you should be, you're worthless"
she says and i open my eyes more, and the tears came back. i get up and go to the hall taking my shoes and my jacket and i run out of there.
i dont know where. i will probably get back later, i just need some air.
its totally dark outside, because its past midnight.
its scary cuz im afraid of dark, but ill be fine.
while walking im just looking at my shoes as tears still fall down my face. After a while of talking i hear a male voice behind me.
"hey little girl"
i slowly stop and turn around as i see a man wearing all black clothes. You almost cant see him in the dark.
i ignore him and continue walking.
its getting scary cuz he keeps following me
"get away from me!" i try but it clearly didnt work like i wanted it to. The man started running towards me. I let out a loud scream as i started running , trying to get away. Unfortunately he was faster than me.
he grabbes me by my arm as i fall on the ground.
"Help me! Someone help me please!" I scream but its pointless. Nobody will help me. Even if they could they wouldnt, because as billie said
Im worthless
i close my eyes. its the only thing i can do. i cant get away because he is much stronger than me.
he leans over. And when i hear the zipper, i knew it was over..
i hear how he pulls his pants down. and then unclips my pants. i try to stop him, but its impossible..
he takes me pants off then my underwear.
"please dont" i whisper but he just laughs
"little girl, you're worthless"
there it is again, that word..
worthless
"no, no, n.." i try but in that moment i stop.
My eyes open wide as i felt him enter me.
it hurt so bad cuz im not wet at all.
" please stop" i scream from the top of my lungs
but he just goes inand out of me, hard.
i moan loud in pain.
And thats the moment i realize..
i have no one.
My life is over. my girlfriend hates me, i dont have any friends, my parents are dead and im getting raped by a 40 year old man..
