Stand With Ward

Chapter 6 Feelings

I always had these dreams.The fire. In my story, I didnt tell you everything.Months after I joined shield, Hydra set my house on fire. It killed my parents. Every Night was like a new version of what I imagined happened. I started screaming. "No!" I screamed. "They dont deserve this!" I started sobbing. "Mia!" Skye runs in and trys to wake me up. She shakes me. "Mia! Wake up its just a dream." She screams. Skye was the only person who knew everything about me. We were like sisters. I dont know what Id do without her. But lately, its been hard to even look at her without thinking about Ward.

I bolted up in pain and shock. "Im sorry." I whimpered, Still sobbing my eyes out. "Dont apoligize." Skye says as she pats my back. "Hey, everythings gonna be alright." She smiles. Skyes smile was always contagious so I smiled back. "Was it about your parents?" She says silently. I nod and hug her. She squeezes me tight. "Best friends?" She asks. "Sisters." I say with a slow smile coming to my lips. "Thank you for coming to wake me up." I say, getting off my bed. "No problem. You know you can tell me anything, right?" She smiles. I feel a bolt of guilt hit me. I was keeping everything from her. I nod and hug her once more before she leaves.

I go to my closet to change and open it. Ward was in it. "Holy f-" I start to scream. "Why the hell are you in my closet Grant?" I asked. I was surprised I called him Grant, I dont know why I did. "I came here to wake you up but then I heard someone." He says, stepping out and looking around. "So.... You heard everything?" I ask, knowing he had. He nods. "Hey, dont feel embarrased. I know my fair share about bad parents." He says, looking at me right in the eye. I look down and turn around. "They werent bad parents. My dreams are about their deaths.... Which reminds me." I say and slap him. "What the hell?" He exclaimed. "That was for killing my parents." I suddenly get furious. "I didn't kill your parents God dammit." He says holding his face. "Hydra did. Same thing." I mumble. "I'm not loyal to Hydra Mia." He turns me around. I look at his hand on my shoulder and flick it off. "Says the guy who broke my best friends heart and attempted to murder my other best friends." I shoot him a glare. He sighs.

"How are you able to do missions with me?" He asks. "What do you mean?" I say, while fixing my bed up. "With them being your best friends? I knew you and skye were friends but not that close." He says. Right, he heard our conversation. "Their orders. I dont have to like you." I state. "Its not personal." I mumble. He squints. "You seem like a specialist." He says. I scoff. Was he freaking kidding me? "The reason I'm closed off is because my parents were killed by hydra, they set my house on fire, trying to kill me. I have never forgiven myself. If you want me to open up to you, I have to trust you, and quite frankly I dont think I will ever trust you." I say angrily, picking up a sweat shirt and leaving the room.

I walk through the hall and put on my best fake smile. Fitzsimmons were making toast. "Mia!" Simmons exclaims. "Are you okay?" She asks. They must've heard me screaming. "Im fine." I say, smiling as much as I can handle. Fitz smiles at me too. Why couldnt they see they were perfect for eachother? It was actually annoying. Jemma looked at me staring at them and as if she knew what I was thinking, she blushed. Jemma had told her time and time again she had no feelings for Fitz, and Fitz was always quiet about this subject. After Ward.... Threw them in the ocean, and hed confessed his feelings, he thought Jemma didnt feel the same. I didnt believe a word. He was always hugging her, and Jemma would usually fall alseep on his lap when we had movie nights. Skye and me would just complain about how perfect they were for eachother and take pictures of them. Yes, we do ship FitzSimmons.

"Mia! My office, now." I heard the director call me through the speakers. "Gotta go guys, the big guys calling me." I say, making them chuckle. I was actually really nervous. I knew in the back of my mind he was calling me for a mission and I could not deal with Grant today. My feelings were all jumbled up with him. I have feelings for him, and I want to stab him. I hated him with a passion and loved him too. I couldnt think straight. After this mission, I was going to ask Coulson if I could resign off this duty. I couldnt be with him, I've been trying to be honest with myself and admitted that those kisses, were real to me. I had to stop this before I broke my own heart.