Unrequited Love[ShinMono]

Part 1: Just Dance!

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"Neito you're in WHO'S bed, right now?" The sound of disappointment in Kendo's voice echoed through the phone.

I ran my fingers through my hair, looking at myself in the bathroom mirror where I was currently hiding. "Shinsou's..Kendo I don't know how this happened. Last night, I don't even remember how it ended in this. We were just dancing."

     "Well you better sort this out soon. Me and Tetsu are coming to get you, be ready to explain it to Hitoshi." The call was shortly ended after that. Which I can't be mad about.

     I took another glance at myself, seeing my unclean face made me cringe. I had been hiding in the bathroom for about an hour and a half, not having the courage to go out and face Shinsou, who may or may not still be sleeping. Even though he wasn't my first, it still had an impact on me. Ever since we did that training mission together we've been pretty close friends, but never this close.

     I kept trying to recall everything that happened. All I do remember is: we were both drunk, there was a song we danced to, then we went upstairs. Everything else was a blur to me. Did he remember at all? I hope not. This was seriously one of the most embarrassing things I've done in my life, and I can't even remember it. Just my luck right?

     I braced myself for what I was about to do. I took a quick breath and walked to the bathroom door, turning the knob to open it. I tiptoed into the boy's room, making sure that he couldn't hear me. I saw that he was still passed out, his body tucked under the covers as he faintly snored. I scanned the room for my clothes, scrambling to put them on quietly enough to not awake him.

     I let out a sigh of relief once I saw Kendo's text telling me she was there. I could get out of this with no awkward conversation, and hopefully Hitoshi didn't even remember it so it wouldn't make things weird before the term starts. I snuck downstairs and put on my shoes before leaving out the front door and running to Kendo's car.

     Once I got into the backseat, Kendo started questioning me and I had no way to respond because it was the same questions I was asking myself not long ago. TetsuTetsu soon calmed her down and told her to put the breaks on the integration until we get back to her place. I silently thanked him for that because my own head was a mess at the moment. I couldn't really think straight, let alone answer questions.

     When we arrived at Kendo's house, we all exited the car and walked in. Slipping off my shoes at the front door, I walked into the kitchen to get some water. I felt dehydrated which was probably from the hangover I had. I walked into the living room with everyone else and sat down. Letting out a sigh, then telling Kendo she can ask one question at a time.

     "So how the actual hell did you end up sleeping wish Hitoshi Shinsou?"

     "I don't know. I can hardly recall anything from last night. We danced together, then I woke up naked in his bed." Which was truthful, I didn't know anything about the situation.

     "Neito, you need to be more careful! You don't know what a guy like him has, surely he's got at least one STD." She crinkled her nose in disgust while I rolled my eyes.

     "That's not what I told you when you got with Tetsu, did I? I know it's ironic coming from me, but you should be less judgmental. Hitoshi isn't that bad of a guy, I think."

     "Hey! Why would you need to tell her that? I'm a fine gentle bro!" Tetsu chimed in offended by comment.

     "Fine. But you need to text him about it and get this sorted out before it gets dragged around school. You don't want your parents finding out, Monoma. You need to stop being reckless."

     Her words were a hard truth that I needed to face. I had to clear this up just in case Shinsou remembered anything of last night to ensure that no one else will find out. Maybe over text would be the best way? It would be better than actually approaching him at school or something. I decided then that I would text him later today, when I knew exactly how to start the conversation.

     I parted ways with Tetsu and Kendo and headed over to my house which was right across the street. Being at my own house felt nice, I could wash my face and shower, get all that disgusting gross shit off me from last night. A reset was nice after everything that happened, it was like I felt like a whole new person. Except...I WANS'T. I still had to have that awkward ass conversation with Shinsou.

     I sat on my bed and opened my phone, scrolling through my contacts and hitting his name. I can't believe I was really going to do this right now. I wanted to die in the moment, he was my friend after all, you don't have these types of conversations with friends. I sighed before typing out the message. What felt like 5 hours after I kept rereading the message and being too scared to send it, I eventually did. The only thing left to do was to throw my phone and crawl into bed for a good sleep and an unbothered mind.

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