I sit in my bedroom in deep thought. Why would they leave? Business things? Do they not want us anymore? Are they starting a new life? Who knows. How the hell are we going to pay for this house? I walk into my bathroom, tears falling from my eyes. I look into the mirror at myself. What happened to me? I'm a complete mess. I've tried commuting suicide once in my life. I failed, obviously. I'm holding back. I don't want to hurt anybody. I just don't think I'm good enough, and I'm sure as hell my parents leaving us here doesn't make anything better. I look at the cabinet to my right, containing medicine and pills.
No Bella. Stop. It's not worth it.
but It's the only way out of this mess.
No it's not.
I feel like it is.
But it's not. You know this.
I walk out of my bathroom, not thinking about anything. I walk down and into the movie theater room and turn on The Notebook.
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I passed out during the movie. It's 8:07pm at the moment. Since haven't spoken to Nash in a while, I decide to text him.
Me: hey.
Nash🐪: hey. I was worried about you. I heard screaming coming from your house today while I was walking Jaxx. what's wrong?
Me: I'll explain later. It's just a really hard time at the moment. Can we hang out tomorrow?
Nash🐪: yeah. I'm going to go, I'll see you later okay?
Me: okay.
I put my phone into the back pocket of my shorts and walk to the first floor. I go into the kitchen to find something to eat. I open the pantry and hear a knock at the door.
"Dom did you order pizza?" I shout to him.
"No.." he shouts back. I furrow my eyebrows together and walk towards the door and open it. I see Nash standing there with flowers in one hand, and a bag of McDonald's and chocolate in the other.
"Nash you are the fucking best person ever!" I say hugging him.
"Come on come in!!" I say jumping up and down like a five year old in Disneyland. He walks in and sets everything on the table. I take the flowers and put them into a beautiful glass vase. I take the food out of the bag and I eat some chocolate.
"Best day ever." I say stuffing my face. Nash laughs.
"Well I wanted to make you feel better, so I brought some of your favorite things." he says smiling.
"Thank youuu." I say. I finish eating everything in sight and we go upstairs into my room.
"So Bella, can you tell me your story?" Nash asks me.
"Are you sure you want to know?" I ask him. I'm nervous to tell him, because I might break down and cry.
"I'm positive." he says.
"Well, when I was a little girl, I never really had parents. They were always either gone at work or in a different country or state for vacation. I only saw them at least twice a day. I had a lot of friends that made me join into their group because they thought I would fit in. It was 'the plastics' group, which is the most popular group in my old high school. I tried commuting suicide when I was 14 because I hated myself. I was very self conscious, and I still am. My parents just recently left us for good. That's why I was screaming. I was having an anxiety attack." I say with tears streaming down my face. Nash comes over to me and wipes away a tear with his thumb.
"There's no need to cry. You'll be okay. Everything will be alright. Hang in there." he says. He hugs me tightly for the longest time. I feel safe.
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Nash just left and it's about 10:36pm. I walk to the kitchen and look at the beautiful flowers that Nash bought for me. I see a little white piece of paper on it. I smile lightly and open it up. I read it. It says:
Stay strong. I love you.
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Blue Eyes (Nash Grier Fanfic)
RandomA girl named Bella is in love with a boy named Nash Grier, internet sensation. She wants to meet him so bad, but she lives across the country, so she can't meet him until he comes to her city. If he ever does, do they hit it off? Do they not? Will t...
