Abnormality (Completed)

I'm Screwed (Lisa POV)

"Is that mean that I love you?" she asked. I laughed a little to her question. "and what makes you think that way?" I asked in my playful tone. I'm so participate with what she about to say next. This is getting pretty interesting to be honest. "well.. I always think that you're beautiful and. And I'm excited when I see you!" she point out what's going on in her head. I find it amusing. "Wowww. Thank you, but its not that simple honey, did you heart beating fast when you see me?" I continue teasing her. A bright smile never escape from my face. She stares at me for a while before she started to nod while enthusiastically humming. I was all puzzled by her respond. "Hmm How can you tell?" I asked curiously. Soon she grab my head and put my ear closer to her chest. She started to talk "Can you hear my heartbeat? See! its fast!" I was stunned. My heart was racing by her action. This is the closest I even been to her body. For a second I'm kinda froze. I was literally hypnotized by the sounds of her heartbeat. It sounds so beautiful, like a music to my ears. A moment later I came back from my sense. I pulled away slowly while staring into her cat eyes. Her eyes were crytal clear and dilated. Everything seems so intense now.

My heart was about to explode soon as she grab my face while leaning closer aiming to kiss my lips. Different from the kiss that she gave me earlier. This time I'm pretty much aware with what she's trying to do since her eyes were gazing on my lips. I don't know whats happening to me that I just let her do whatever she wants. I'm losing control over myself. Slowly I felt her lips touching mine and I got carried away by the contact. Her lips were so soft and plum. It was moist and addictive which makes me want to taste some more. I started to deepen our kiss. She didn't seems to have any sign to stop either as she begin to pull my arms closer to her body. I was aroused by her action. I mean its been a while I didn't have sex so this turning me on so hard.

I think I'm going insane that I started to explore her lips more. I kiss her  gentle and slow. I took a chance to taste every inch of her kissable lips by nibbling her upper and lower lips. Its obvious that I couldn't stop myself. I was literally feeling high and weak by the sudden intimate connection. My mind was literally blank and the only thing that I could focus right now was savouring her pink lips. Soon I started to gently pushing her body to let her lying down on the sofa under my body. Maybe it was just me but I can feel jennie was actually eager wanted to kiss me more since her hands were interlocking behind my nape.

We make out for 20 minutes straight in the living room. I'm not lying I'm actually feeling hot. Its not easy to control my hormones. But I try so hard to refrain myself from proceeding to have sex with her. Thankfully I managed. Our intimate moments were more into exploring the kiss and touching body. Soon after we're done, I regret it immediately. I felt disgusted over myself. It feels like I'm taking advantage on her since she's unwell. But it already happened and she probably didn't understand what exactly we're doing earlier. Eventhough she seems to like it, and ready to go further but I can't just go for it.

Now we're sitting on th couch while watching tv. My mind was actually fucked up. I felt scared and anxious by our intimate session. "Um jennie" I started to called her. She turned her head to me while looking at me intently. She was all smiling. "About our kiss, can you keep it as a secret? Don't tell jisoo about it" I continued. I felt guilty for doing this. "Why?" she asked curiously. Her face looks worried. "Well. Umm. Jisoo don't like it. She probably going to separate us if she knew, you don't want that to happen right?" I told feeling unsure. I don't know if this is a right thing to do. Upon hearing my question she excessively shaking her head while looking scared. I assumed she don't want to be away from me. I felt relieve that she follow my words. But at the same time I felt like a loser.

Nevertheless, it wasn't the first and the last. We keep on doing it whevenever we had a chance. And each time it happened, I felt more disgusted. I did try to stop from keep on doing this but jennie makes it hard for me. She tend to be cranky and sulky whenever I try to avoid. It break my heart each time I saw her ragging and crying. I end up giving it all to her. I was stucked and screwed. It as if she was addicted to make out with me that everytime we met, she will be asking for it. I didn't longer feel safe around jisoo. I felt guily whenever I interacting with her.

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"Jennie not here. Here is not safe" I whisper to jennie as she keep on touching my body trying to reach for a kiss. We're currently standing in a living room at jisoo's place. Jennie seems to be desperate since its been 3 days we didn't see each other due to my hectic work schedule. She looks cranky and about to cry as I try to reject her. "I want it" she said in her sad tone with pouty face. Her eyes were all watery. "Lets do it somewhere, here is not clear" I suggested in my low tone. I felt worried since jisoo could appeared here anytime and I was right. Her voice came interupting us.

"what's not clear?" she looks cold.