Abnormality (Completed)

The Examination (Lisa POV)

Jisoo and I are currently in a doctor room for further discussion on jennie's condition. Honestly I still feel dizzy with the whole situation. I can't process things that happened today. I was shocked and in disbelief. My mind was literally immobilize and I couldn't decide what to do next. I felt lost. Jennie sudden change of behaviour was bothering me a lot. I don't even know whether I should feel happy or the other way round. My heart was weak that I feel suffocate.

"So based on our further examination to your sister, it most likely that she dignosis from Anterograde Amnesia. Meaning that she cannot remember the recent event that happened around her which including you Ms. Um Lisa, and she could only recall her past memories right after an accident happened to her. This possibly happened due to brain trauma, and I believe the event that happened infront of her eyes today was affecting her brain" my heart sinking deeper as I learnt that jennie couldn't remember that I used to be part of her life. I was actually in brink of crying. My heart was beating like crazy.

"How long does it take for her to retrieve her recent memory?" I asked weakly. "I couldn't give a specific answer to that question Ms. Lisa. We deal with so many cases like this around the world. It always come up with different results. Some of the patient took years to remember everything that happened in their life. And some permanently lost the recent one. In her case, I couldn't guarantee you anything. At the end it depends on herself" the doctor stated calmly. I'm not strong enough to keep up with the conversation. I felt scared. It seems like I couldn't accept the reality that happened to me today. I keep looking down to hide the pain in me. "But the good thing is, she's not longer abnormal. I think that is all the matter now. Just try to stay positive around her" the doctor added. I could only nodded to her. All of these were too much for me swallowed. I missed my old jennie. My warm and cheeky jennie. She's gone now.

I was stopping jisoo in the middle of the walk. We're actually heading back to jennie's ward after the discussion.  Soon she look at me with worry expression. "Jisoo.. Don't tell her that I'm her girlfriend" I stated. My energy was slowly sinking as I think about the discussion earlier. "You sure about that?" she asked. She look stunned by my statement. Weakly I nodded to her and begin to speak again. "I don't want her feel awkward around me. She just recovered and I don't want to put a pressure in her. She's normal now that's what matter" I stated trying to smile just to hide my pain. She seems to be unsure by my decision but she let it slide. My legs feel so numb as we getting closer to jennie's ward. I feel scared thinking about how would she react to me after this. Anxious was creeping on me along the way. A moment later we arrived in her room, I was hesitating whether I should approaching her or keep a distance. At the end, I chose the second one. I keep looking at her figure few meters away.

How fast the night changed. She used to be the one who gets all excited right after she saw me. She used to be the one that clinging to me as soon as she saw me. Now I'm just nothing.

I thought I'm strong. But I'm not. My heart was slowly crushing as I realised I couldn't treat her like before. I can't longer hug or kiss her. Everything felt so different now. It was painful as I watch her staying vague to me, I couldn't contain myself that I start to walk out of the room while bursting into tears. Little by little, she was tearing us apart.