||×Tommyinnit oneshots×|| (Discontinued)

×late night thoughts ✨×

writing in laptop again same as last time ill edit later(edited)
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Tommy pov

i was lying down there in my bed discord was opened in my laptop YouTube on my tablet I kept thinking back to the same thing my family.

if I'm honest I'm actually Puerto Rican my father broke up with my mom when i was 4 they're still friends but I just wish everything went back to before my sister was born just us 3 now you may think 'tommy what kind of selfish prick are you!!' but my sisters birth cause my family to fall apart my mother favorite my sister.

I think to myself how many hits/words/threats I got from my mother unlike my sister I was jealous of her how did she get a perfect life and I dint?! I use blocking off my emotions as a way to cope with stuff sometimes or drown myself to refresh restart as a new person.

i had met new people who helped me i lost interest in drowning as a coping mechanism i eat more now im healthier thanks to them.

i put on our shared playlist and head off to discord and see one of the friends is online is ask them if they're pulling an all nigther to.

no awnser but another friend did awnser with something about theyre internet i smiled at that and saw another message and smiled i had people to help me.

i turn off my laptop and renember the pain of that day.

i huddle the warmth of my blanket and wait till its 5/6 am im excited to see the sunrise.

'the sunrise is so beautiful today'

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
hrjefoe done with my vent um hallooooo byee editing this soon