what do you want?! [Seungmin X OC]

⍟13⍟

it's already been one month since Seungmin and I or the boys have talked. I have been ignoring calls and texts from Jeongin, so I currently have one hundred and twenty five unread messages and thirty two missed calls from him. I wish I could talk to him again, I really do. but... at this rate, if I interact with anyone that knows Seungmin, I know we're just gonna end up talking to each other somehow.

so I shut everyone out.

I moved my locker and now it's all the way at the end of the hall where almost no ones locker is at, and I stopped going out to places and just headed straight to my apartment. I moved out of my moms house and bought an apartment of my owns and live there alone now.

the only sort of "socializing" I ever do now is just go to my two jobs after school. my mom was actually more than glad that I moved out, actually.

[Flashback]

"mom, I'm moving out now." I say lightly.

"great. I don't want to see your face around me anymore." she tells me.

[End Of Flashbacks]

ever since I shut everyone out, things have became... empty, I guess you could say. all I ever do is just be alone, no one ever talks to me anymore. at all. the last time I opened my mouth and had a conversation with someone was six days ago. other than that, didn't talk to anyone at all, really. of course, the "popular" girls took advantage of my situation and they told me that I should become friends with them. more like their servant.

"all because of some boy." I sniff, tears dropping down my eyes, "why? why did I let him get to me?"

I opened up my heart for him and trusted him. but he just ended up shutting me out and being cold to me. my trust issues deepened, he touched one of my unhealed and opened wounds and it burnt. it burnt more than anything in this world.

"yah Seungmin.." I sob, wiping my tears as I curl myself in a ball in my bed, "why did you do that?... everything was going good, I don't understand why you shut me out of your life like you turned off a light."

[Jeongin POV]

I look at Jinsi walk through the corridors alone as usual, her eye bags have gotten even worse and she looks greyed out. she walks the hallways filled with dread, her uniform all perfect but her shoes are untied and her hair is brushed, but her head is probably a knotted mess. she looks both physically, mentally, and emotionally miserable. she looks like she just pulled out of bed like a slug, crawling its way through life poorly. I haven't seen her sweet smile or heard her beautiful laugh in ages.

Seungmin said that he wanted to part ways with her because he wanted her to put her mental state together but all it did was worsen. it's now visible on her face that she's suffering and she doesn't even bother to hide the fact she's in pain. it hurts me to see her in this state but all I can do is sit and stare because even if I walk up to her she just avoids me.

she walks down the hallways miserably, her sad and depressing aura rubbing off of everyone in the hallway, causing the non-visible air to turn grey and miserable. she walks past me and I smell her rosy perfume on her. everyone eyes her down and they frown looking at her seeing the horrible state she's in.

"it's a shame of how Seungmin left her." someone in the crowd says, "I haven't seen her smile in ages. it looks like as if she's never smiled in her life."

"I can't believe Seungmin just shut her out like that.. she looked so happy when she was with him. I've never seen Jinsi like this... even before she had met Seungmin and was a loner. she was never like this... what happened.." someone says.