I love you no matter what [ON HOLD]

Chapter 5

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I'm so sorry this took so long to update but I've had sooooo much in school these past few weeks. I have spring break now so I hope I'll be able to update more often! I love you all so much and please vote and comment if you like it.
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What did just happen?! Why did he kiss me?! It felt so good but also so wrong at the same time, of course he had to storm out. I shouldn't be so..so...I don't know what I am or feel but I know that I feel a desire to be with him, to be near him. I think it's not so good since he clearly is with Ashley or some other girl...or girls, you never know when guys objectify women. I don't know what to say to him in class tomorrow, he probably won't talk to me anyway.

I've been lying in bed for 3 hours with no luck of sleep, the boy Sarah brought here was nice and cute. I think she said his name was Liam, he had blond hair with small curls and his eyes were in a deep shade of green. He gave her a kiss on the cheek before he left the building, I didn't got the opportunity to ask if they were on a date 'cause of course she started to ask why Zac was here. I didn't tell her about the kiss, I just told her that he apologized for what he said earlier.

I didn't notice myself fall asleep last night, but I'm glad I did. I'm really tired and dizzy today though, I feel like I want to skip all the classes today and just stay home..well here. I have to go through the day, a boy can't stand in my way for my education.

I apply some makeup, a little extra underneath my eyes to cover my eye bags. I put on a simple gray hoodie and my black skinny jeans, I don't have time to fix my hair since I woke up half an hour late so I put it into a ponytail. I take my bag with all my books in and walk out the dorm, it's a cloudy weather today..and it's just Wednesday. I can't wait until Friday when I'll get to spend time with Jason and his friends, it will be so fun even though Zac is in the basketball team.

The day starts pretty good with literature, but Zac wasn't there. He wasn't at science either, I wonder what he's doing. It wouldn't surprise me if it turns out that he's skipping the classes with purpose, or if he is with girls instead of doing school. I feel sorry for his parents, they must have given up by now. I mean it can't be easy to handle with him, right?

When the school day is over I decide to talk a run again, I feel somehow free when I'm running. It's a strange feeling but it helps, and I keep myself in a good shape by running so I take advantage of that. I run the exact same round like yesterday, when I am at the basketball stadium I spot someone walking toward me, it can't be...Zac. Oh no, I don't want to run into him. I can't! My whole body wants to turn around and run to the opposite way, but I just keep running forward, toward him. Why can't I turn around? I turn my head away from him in hope he won't notice me, but he proves me wrong when I feel his hand grab my arm. I try to let go out of his grip but he's too strong. I stop trying because I know I have no chance to escape, my head is still in another direction from where he stands.

"Why did you kiss me?" I ask him like a whisper, "You were the one who took the first step" he says and starts to get slightly angry. I try to walk away from him again, but he has a steady grasp around my arm that I still can't escape from.

"I couldn't embarrass you by not kissing you back" he says like he doesn't care, that hurt a lot. I can feel the lump in my throat grow bigger and bigger and my eyes fill with water, why did I kiss him? Of course the kiss didn't mean anything to him, he's just a freaking player.

"Let go of me" I shout toward him, he doesn't listen though. He just stares at me, "What the hell is your problem Zac?" I raise my voice even higher, "No need to be rude Bambi" he says calmly. He got to be kidding me, what does he know about that. The only thing he does is to be rude, that's his personality.

"Don't call me Bambi!" I'm starting to get really angry at him, but I'm sort of enjoying his grip around my arm. To feel his touch, it's an indescribable feeling. A smirk appears on his perfect face...stop it Emma!

"You're cute when you're angry" he says and smiles so his big white teeth shine from the sun that creeps up from the clouds above us. "You're disgusting" I say really annoyed.

"You don't even mean that" I say to him. "How can you be so sure?" He asks me and my blood is starting to boil now.

"Because you're a freaking player that doesn't care about anything nor anyone, that's how I know" he gets clearly shocked by my choice of words, he lets go of my arm and stares deep into my eyes, "Is that what you think?" He asks me. "No, that's what I know" I answer him and walk as fast as I possible can away from him.

I turn around to see him still standing there with his hands deep into his pockets, I take a last glance at him before I run like crazy as far away as I cope. I reach my dorm and see that I'm the only one here, Sarah must be with Liam which is a big relief for me. I just feel for crying, I'm feeling so hurt. It was just a kiss but it also was my first and it didn't even mean anything for him. How could I've been so stupid??

My mascara is running down my cheeks to leave black color upon them, I'm a total mess for nothing. I cry for several hours before I decide to gather every strength I have left to go and take a shower, I shower for like an hour. I never do that but I think I needed it, I didn't forget to bring new clothes this time though. I put on an one piece, I sort of like them. They're pretty comfortable. I walk back to mine and Sarah's dorm room and sit down on my bed, exhausted as always. I fall asleep with my one piece on, I never do that either but I was too tired since Zac's sabotaged my first kiss.