Will I Ever Be Enough?

There are days where I just don't know

Know what I'm supposed to do

Know where I'm supposed to go

Know who I'm supposed to be

My whole life, it has seemed as if there were exterior forces directing me

Forces pushing me in different directions

Forces whispering to me to just do more

Forces whispering to me to just be more

And yet, it's never that simple

Everyone expects so much of me

My peers expect me to top every class

And use my so-called talents to assist them in their endeavours

My teachers expect me to get a certain mark

And I see the disappointment in their faces

When I don't meet their expectations

There are days when I just wonder

What it would be like to be someone else

One of those other girls who dances through life without a care in the world

One of those girls that doesn't need to be the best

One of those girls who won't be expected to always top their class

But I know that I am not like that

That I will never be like that

Because this gifted-thing will never leave me

It has become a part of me

That's how I am defined

That's who I am

I know what I want to do with my life

I have ideas as to where I am headed

I want to make a difference

I want to change the world

And somehow, this gifted-thing will be a part of that

It will always be there

Throughout all my endeavours

What is the cause of all my accomplishments?

Apparently this gifted-thing, they say

It doesn't mean I don't work hard

People expect everything to come naturally to me

It doesn't

I've had to work for years to get where I am

But will it ever be enough?

Will I ever be enough?