TVD Preferences & Imagines 2

imagine #10 : elijah

imagine thinking that elijah is into someone else but finding out he only loves you

You and Elijah had been something more than friends for ages now. You hadn't confessed your feelings to each other, and you weren't even sure did you have any - or more like did he have any. You knew you loved him, but you were too scared of admitting it to him, or to anyone really. So you just tried to be happy with the friendship you had with him. 

But it got harder, when you noticed how close he was with Hayley - the girl who was carrying Klaus' child. Even if she had a child with Klaus, she seemed to be too interested in Elijah, who either couldn't see the affection she kept showing him, or then he had feelings for her. A big part of you, so big you didn't even want to admit it, hated it and wished for him to actually care about you but you knew it wasn't true. The way you saw him helping Hayley, and talking to her belly and touching it with pure love in his eyes - it was all too much for you stand, because it was proof of him having feelings for Hayley. You were so sure of it.

It had been lasting for weeks now, maybe even months, you had lost the track of time and just tried to shut it out. Just like Elijah had done to you. At least it felt like it. You so wanted to ignore him, but it was hard because after all, you pretty much lived at their place nowadays and you constantly found yourself trying to get his attention. But all of it was directed to Hayley, who seemed to enjoy it. At some points, you honestly felt like Hayley was trying to annoy you, but you were sure it wasn't like that. Maybe.

On one rather boring evening, you sat in the living room and watched from aside as Elijah and Hayley had an intense conversation about the pregnancy she was going through. It hurt you, how he seemed to care about her more than he ever cared about you, even though you had known him for far more longer than Hayley had. 

"I'm positive the child will be as wonderful as her mother is", Elijah then said, causing your heart to fall officially apart. To this point, it had been holding itself together for quite the while, but now, it was broken. You despised the warm smile on Elijah's face as he and Hayley stared deeply into each other's eyes. You were convinced they would kiss any time soon, as if you weren't even in the room with them. And you weren't, not for much longer.

You got up and left the room while wiping your eyes. "Excuse me for a moment", you heard Elijah say in the living room, which caused you to pick up the speed of your footsteps and head outside. Before you could storm out of the door, you felt a familiar, but unnecessarily tight grip around your wrist. You were pulled back and twirled around, and you hit a broad chest, that hid - unfortunately - under the blue shirt Elijah was wearing. 

"What?", you asked, and shivered at your voice. It came out more rude and snappy than you were expecting it to, and it made Elijah widen his eyes too. He could obviously sense how tense and annoyed you were, but it all got pushed underneath the sadness in you. It just radiated off of you, and that was what got Elijah's attention the most. The small tears in your eyes, and your sniffling and your weak state you were clearly in. The way you tried to hide yourself by crossing your arms and looking down, ashamed and sorrowful.

"Is everything alright, Y/N? And please, be honest with me. If Niklaus has done something, don't be afraid of speaking up. You can tell me the truth", Elijah said, with a happy smile, not knowing of how he had been hurting you. It was stupid, you thought, how were you supposed to tell him he had hurt your feelings when he didn't even know how? 

"No, it's not Nik", you said quietly.

"Then what is the matter? Has Rebekah done something to upset you? Hayley?", he continued, putting more pressure on you. You couldn't stop yourself from scoffing at how Hayley's name left his lips so smoothly. But maybe it was all imagined by you, maybe he didn't say it softly at all. Frankly, he might have said Rebekah's, or even Klaus' name with more care than Hayley's. You just didn't notice, you were blinded by the thought of him actually being in love with her.

"No, Elijah, they haven't done anything to upset me. You have! Okay, you have, now can I please go?", you said and tried to yank your wrist away from him, but what you said caused him to take a stronger hold of you.

"You most surely cannot. Before I allow you to leave, I insist you tell me what I have done to hurt you. Because I assure, it has never been my intention. I could never hurt you, Y/N", he said, so softly and fondly it sent shivers from your head to your toes. You chuckled, but not in amusement. You felt selfish now, and couldn't even imagine how he would react to your explanation. 

"It's stupid, Elijah. It's just- I thought you and I... I thought there was something between us, and I thought you cared about me, or, I mean, liked me. But now that I have seen you with Hayley...", you mumbled and shrugged awkwardly. You didn't want to go through this, but you know lying wouldn't help and Elijah wasn't going to let you go before explaining your thoughts to him. 

Elijah's eyes widened. "Hayley is family now. I have shown her so much affection because she needs to feel safe and loved here. She is carrying my brother's child, Y/N, and I want her to feel comfortable around us. I swear to you, I never meant to make you feel neglected. As much as I have been spending time with Hayley, she doesn't mean to me as much as you do", he said, and made your knees go weak while you tried to cope with everything he said. You should have understood. And realizing how stupid you had been made you blush and you just wanted to yell and cry and escape the situation. But the firm, yet caring hold Elijah had on you, both emotionally and literally stopped you from doing so.

"I didn't think I would have to say this in a situation like this, but I'm in love with you, Y/N, and I could never hurt you. Just the thought of me hurting your feelings seems absolutely ridiculous to me, and I hope you understand that even though I seem to be close with Hayley, I don't care about her the way I care about you. I love you, Y/N. Only you", he admitted then, and gave you a careful but warm smile.

You broke into one too, and nodded your head weakly before he pulled you closer and kissed your lips softly, and with love. It made sense to you now, and even though you felt ashamed of feeling the way you did only a moment ago, you were sort of glad it happened. Because now you knew how Elijah felt. 

// i'm in tears omg i just want him to love me sorry what idk i hope you enjoyed it