I've chosen you (August Alsina)

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Edited: 1/11/16

 Zaye

I laid across the king size bed with my best guy friend Jacob.We decided since we were both not busy and have no lives then why not?He and my friend didn't work out.He walked in on her with another guy.We lied across his bed watching re-runs of the Parker's and Everybody Hates Chris.I just feel so relaxed and at home with him.I can chill in sweatpants or a dress and he still treats me like a queen.I don't now if I should take August back or not.He really screwed up.I mean I'm glad he told me but then the fact that he stepped out on me. Momma said a 'Good man is hard to find,but good men all make mistakes,you have to find the faults and mistakes that you can suffer through." I still don't know if I should meet up with him or not.

"Carebear you wanna go get something to eat"Jacob asked as he got up stretching and calling me by the nickname he came up for me."That's fine but look at what I have on."We both looked at my Grey hoodie,black leggings and tall grey Uggs and my hair in a sloppy bun."What's wrong with what you have on?You look beautiful as always" I slightly blushed at his comment."Thanks tank head"I smartly replied"What did you call me?" He questioned as he walked over to me and threw me over his shoulder then began going downstairs."Nothing" I said "Mhmm but what do you want to eat"He asked while sliding on his shoes. "I don't know you pick." I replied "It doesn't matter as long as I'm with you."

 All that has been going through my mind is the lunch meet-up with August tomorrow.I'm not even calling it a date. Technically we never actually called off the relationship and he obviously didn't get the hint to stop calling me either. I love him with all of my heart I really do. But I wont go back like a dumb girl.

"Carebear?"Jacob said as he nudged me."Yeah sorry was day dreaming." I began thinking is it wrong I still have my heart within August but now I think I may be falling for Jacob? "Come on were going to Smash Burger" he said as he grabbed his keys.As we drove my hand rested in his.We were both silent as soon as "Fool for you" by Cee Lo Green and Melanie Fiona I started getting in my feelings.I started thinking how he fucked me over but I just may forgive and he the only one to make me feel like this.I then felt a warm sensation on my face.I hate crying I don't think it shows weakness I just don't want others to worry about me I like to help others and make them happy even if I'm not happy myself.

"What's wrong?" Jacob questioned with sincerity "Nothing" I replied hurry to wipe my face with my sleeve."I thought we didn't keep secrets"He said as if I committed a crime "We don't."I said innocently "It's that August guy isn't it?" He questioned.I just simply nodded he wasn't to fond of August."What's his address?"  I jumped out once he asked that "What?Why do you need it?" I questioned "I'm not going to have my best friend hurt and crying  your gonna go over there and talk to him."

Less that thirty minutes later we pulled up in front of his home.I had butterflies and my hands wouldn't stop shaking I said a quick prayer before stepping out the car.Jacob and I agreed he would stay in the car and wait and if I texted him he could leave if all was going good.I slowly walked up the cobblestone walk way and past the beautiful purple and yellow flowers lining each side planted inside the beautiful but yet artificial green grass.I went to ring the doorbell then took a step off the porch.I stood there awkwardly picking my cuticles then the door swung open.I wanted to blush and instantly smile but I don't want him to see that he could be forgiven so easily.He looked at me and began smiling and said for me to come in before he closed the door behind me.

"Would you like something to drink?"He questioned nervously "A glass of water is fine."I replied.He quickly returned with my drink and had 4 slices of lemon just how I like it."I want to say I'm deeply and truly am sorry.I apologize if I could I would take it all back." He rushed and said as if I was going to vanish from his sight."Why August.I mean you couldn't literally have been that high off weed to decide to fuck this broad.I love you I really do but what you did was wrong. I read your text. If you knew she was so sneaky back then did why did you even let her in? Why did you even smoke with her don't play the victim shit either "Oh she probably drugged me" If you knew I was at home waiting for you why would you even wanna fuck around with or be in proximity with your ex that cheated on you when ya'll were a thing?" I said I was upset,hurt and most of all disappointed! "I want to rebuild the trust I actually want to ask you something"He began getting down on one knee.I just shook my head and the water works began "I can't August we need the trust before I can make such a big commitment to you.We can work on becoming somewhere close to what we used to be but this isn't the time."I said.

He put the box in his pocket and pulled out another."I figured you wouldn't be ready but just know I don't want anyone but you in my life Zaye. Your my heart,soul and the reason I have the strength and courage to get up in the morning.You motivate me and I want to give you this ring as promise that I will always be there for you and that I will always be there and here for you.I love you Zaye I'm also very deeply in love with you."He stretched out his hand and I grabbed it he slipped on the promise ring.I guess this is the rebuilding stage time to restart. I pray to God I don't feel stupid after all this. 

Some editing was done -11/30/15

Kerra