I'll rule the world - Draco Malfoy x reader (18+)

The Past

TW: mention of suicide, s/h

Y/N

I couldn't stand this shit anymore. The one person that makes me feel good with myself after a long time is the one my father wants to recruit and ruin his life.

But what am I gonna say to my father? Maybe if I told him that he was useless he won't harm him.

Bullshit. He won't believe me. And if he finds out that I'm protecting him I'm dead.

"fuck. Why every person that makes me feel good is either dead or has a terrible faith?" I mumbled.

"what do you mean?"

Fuck. Not Malfoy.

"eer it's complicated"

"you know you can tell me love"

Fuck that sounded soo good.

"fine. I was talking about my best friend at durmstrung."

"you miss her?"

"him." I corrected him "and yes. He. He's dead."

"fuck I'm so sorry"

"yea. He committed suicide."

"oh fuck Y/N" he said while placing my head on his lap.

Wait. It's the first time he calls me by my first name. Oh lord it sounded good.

" yea. And it's all my fault."

"hey. Don't ever say that again. I'm sure it wasn't"

Fuck he is so supportive.

"I couldn't help him. I didn't save him."

Tears started coming out of my eyes.

"here look. That's the note he left me."

I took of my redwood bracelet and while I was pointing my want at it-

" reveal your secrets"

Then a note came out of my bracelet.

Hey Y/N. I'll probably be dead by the time you are reading this. But the last thing I want you to do is crying. I'm finally happy up here (jk I went to hell and you know it <3). I had many problems that you knew of  but it's not your fault. Don't ever say that it was your fault. I love you so much and I'll miss you. And I know you'll miss me too. But please,go back to being the annoying bitch you always were. I want you to be happy and have fun. But don't forget me.

I love you, James.

" after that I stared s/h. Like. A lot." I said.
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Draco

As she was reading the letter to me she couldn't stop crying no matter how hard she tried.

Seeing her crying made me feel so bad. I couldn't breathe and there was a knot in my stomach.

And there's when I made a promise to myself.

I'll. Never. Make. Her. Cry.
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Y/N

After I read the letter to him I slowly closed my eyes and fell asleep in his arms.

I was so exhausted.
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When I woke up I decided to leave him there.

I know. Bad.

But I still didn't know what I'll do with him.

I wanted to eat breakfast alone and Pansy didn't questioned it.

"Riddle we need to talk-"

"no we don't Malfoy. Please don't talk to me for the rest of the day. Do it as a favor." I said and I quickly left.

I was running to my dorm by he was running after me.

When we finally went to the dorm he locked the door and looked at me with an angry expression. He looked like a monster.

" I CAN'T DO THIS ANYMORE " he shouted.

" I'M TRYING EVERYTHING TO KEEP YOU HAPPY, ESPECIALLY AFTER WHAT YOU TOLD ME YESTERDAY AND YOU KEEP IGNORING ME. I CAN'T DO IT ANYMORE. I LOVE YOU. IS THAT WHAT YOU WANT TO HEAR? I FINALLY FOUND A PERSON THAT I'M HAPPY WITH AND YOU JUST TREAT ME LIKE I'M NOTHING-"

" STOP IT RIGHT THE FUCK NOW" I interrupted him shouting even more.

"I know what you feel. OK? But please forget it." I said as tears started falling from my eyes."its for your own good. I know you don't understand me now but you will. Real soon." I stopped talking cause I saw that he was tearing up too.

"hey. Hey. Hey Draco please don't make this harder for me. Please."

"HARDER FOR YOU? ARE YOU SERIOUS? YOU JUST THROW ME AWAY LIKE I'M NOTHING. HOW IS THIS HARD FOR YOU?"

"please Draco. It's as hard for me as it is for you. Please don't make it harder."

"GET THE FUCK OUT OF HERE RIDDLE"

"k then. I'll be sleeping at Pansy's dorm for a couple days. You know where to find me if you need anything." I said crying my eyes out.

"I WON'T NEED ANYTHING FROM YOU"
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Draco

Well done Draco you pushed away the only person that cared for you.

But she, obviously, used you.

Fuck.

I can't do this anymore. Maybe a break is what I need.

Ugh. I can't.

I stared at her empty bed. Her closet was now empty. And her smell had almost disappeared.

And most importantly I broke my promise. I made her cry.