A teacher's love story {still writing}

Dinner

It has been a month since the trip and Pascal and I haven't talked to each other, not on Whatsapp, not after classes, not even in the classes. Every time I walk to my class and accidentally see him I need to keep myself from smiling brightly and running up to him talking about all the stupid and weird things that have happened that day. The director has been watching me as well these past couple of weeks, making sure I don't do anything 'weird'. Which is quite annoying, to be honest.

I am in history class and Barford tells us we are going to watch a movie if we finish these exercises in the giving time. We got 13 minutes to finish 4 exercises, but I am not able to focus as Barford has been running through my mind all day long, I can easily say he does that 24/7. Every day seems so long to see him again and his classes seem to be so short. I look around the room seeing some kids joking around and the others are working on those exercises, I lean on one hand facing Barford looking at his somehow hot/cute working face. The sun finally comes through as one of the sun rays falls on Barford, now I can finally see that the color of his shirt is dark red with and a white shirt underneath it which peaks out on the top. He licks his lips while checking some papers which made me want to kiss him so badly and his eyes sparkle a little in the sunlight. I stayed like that until I hear Jamy cough and say sarcastically  ''Y/N Stop staring, it's rude''. Everybody hears it because Jamy sits on the other side of the fucking room. Barford looks up laughing a bit and the sudden comment of Jamy. ''What were you staring at?'' he asks me and I answer him ''It's not what but who'' I say trying to be funny/flirty. ''Who are you staring at?'' he asks as he lifts up one eyebrow. ''Oh well, no one'' I answer back awkwardly. He laughs a little and then asks Jamy ''Who was she staring at?'' ''Oh that wa-'' Jamy tried to answer but I yelled ''JAMY I SWEAR TO GOD IF YOU TELL HIM THAT WILL BE NO TOMORROW FOR YOU'', Jamy laughs and looks at Barford lifting up his hands indicating that he doesn't know the answer on his question. '''Just say it already'' Jessica says. ''No let's stop here'' Barford answers Jessica. ''Y/N? Are you done with all the exercises?'' he asks and I nod yes. ''Which one have you finished'' he asks making me flutter a little. The last time we had such a long conversation was a month ago. ''Exactly 0, mr Barford'' I say. He laughs it off a little as says ''Okay make sure you got them before Friday, we will be checking them then.'' He puts on the movie and I was, to be honest waiting for him to grab one of the empty chairs and put it down in the back of the class close to me, so we can watch the movie together. He would usually be very subtle with the touching part, he would put his foot on his leg and 'accidentally' touch mine by doing that, or lean my way when he is sitting on the chair and I would do the same. But he didn't even take a chair, He stayed in his chair by his desk, I was a little disappointed but thought he would do the other thing which he stays where he is but looks around the class if everything is alright and then take very long intense glares at me. That is always cute, it's even cuter when I look back at him and he gets all shy and tries to look away as fast as possible. Unfortunately, he didn't do anything like that all class long.

The bell rang and everybody left the room including Barford who needed to grab some paperwork from a cabinet outside the classroom. Everybody is gone and I sat down at his desk, legs a little separated so I can put my hands between them and lean on it. Barford walks in eyes focused on the papers, he closes the door and walks towards his desk still having his eyes fixated on the paper. Once he is close enough, I pull his arms so he comes my way and when he stands in front of me, I put my hands on his jaw/cheek and lean in to kiss him. He leans back in surprise until he sees it is me and leans back in. We stopped and he hugged me tightly while I am still sitting on the table and he puts his face in the crook of my neck. ''God I missed this" he says as his voice is a little muffled. ''What did you miss?'' I ask him having one arm around his shoulders and one hand in his hair as my chin leans on his head. ''This, everything, your voice, your smile, your weird comments and dances, your hugs and kisses, I miss it all. I miss your random moments wanting to come over and bring our favorite snacks, god...'' he says and I smile at his words. ''You still wanna know who I was staring at?'' I ask and he leans back a bit so he is able to look me in my eyes. ''Oh your eyes are so sparkly in the sunlight'' he said distracted from what I said. ''I am sorry, Yes I still wanna know'' he answers back staring intensely at my eyes which are apparently sparkling. I answered back but got interrupted ''It wa-'' ''You, mr. Barford'' I focus my eyes on the side the sound is coming from and mr. Barford turns around to see who said that. ''Don't look so shocked, you know it was you. You know she has been missing you for the last month and she would be staring at you, you just wanted her to say it out loud.'' Jamy said smiling exultantly while walking to his seat to take a notebook off the table. ''Sorry I needed to grab my notebook, I forgot to take it with me'' He says holding it up in the air. ''How does he know? Did you tell him?'' Barford asks and looks at me. ''No she didn't it was quite obvious'' Jamy answers for me. ''How?'' he asks. ''The locked door prank... both coming too late to the ride, you do everything together. Oh and we obviously can't forget the hotel, I think the while hallway there knows about you two now'' he says and Barford laughs proudly at the last comment Jamy made. ''What are you laughing at?'' I ask chaotically. ''I made you scream so loud that the whole hallway heard you'' he says still smiling. I push his shoulder saying ''Yeah I could normally appreciate that, but do you think about the fact that one of those fellas could have said it to the teachers or director. They can all bring us down by just saying one fucking sentence'' ''Barford and Y/N are in a relationship'' Jamy says softly quoting the sentence. ''Exactly'' I say and Barford looks up from the ground making eye contact with both of us. ''Okay, let's not talk about this right now, it's too dangerous. We will meet after school someday to talk about this. Alright?'' he asks and we nod in agreement. ''Hey people'' Mr. Salins says trying to come off cool, he got followed by half of our class. ''Sorry I needed to say something real fast before you guess went home'' he says looking at the three of us. Everybody sits down at one of the seats and I remain on the desk of the teacher while Barford also sits down in his chair. ''Y/N, why are you sitting on the desk? Go sit down at one of the tables'' Salins says looking confused. ''Oh well, we were playing a game so that's why I'm sitting here'' I say looking as innocent as possible. ''Okay? Can you sit down somewhere else?'' he asks looking around the hallway to see if he can find some other kids. ''Nah'' I answer and he sighs ''You can sit there for once'' he said and then started talking to all of us. ''Guys, as you know we have dinner tonight at Kodoo. Make sure you will be there at 18:30 and please behave a little, so no yelling, running and or childish behavior.'' He said and I raise my hand ''Yes'' He said looking at me ''I need to work till 19:00 is it alright that I come some later? My work is across the street of the restaurant so it doesn't take me long to get there'' I say. ''No, it's fine. We will keep a chair free for you'' he answers. ''Can you guys please give this information to the kids who aren't here right now? I would really appreciate that'' He said rounding things up. ''How about mr. Barford?'' Jessica asks and Salins looks a little confused. ''What about him?'' he asks and Jessica responds enthusiastically ''Well it was quite fun when he was with us at the trip to Berlin, wouldn't it be fun to bring him along with us?''. Salins looks at Barford to see if he agrees with it and Barford nods saying ''I'm free tonight, I would love to go with you motherfuckers''. ''I think you got your answer'' Salins says laughing. They all start to wrap up their stuff and leave the room when Salins yells ''Make sure you are on time and I see you later!''