i'll do my best // muke

We Never Broke Up

Luke's POV.

I waited at Michael's locker after school. I was nervous, and I really just wanted to be at his house watching a movie or whatever.

"Hey babe." I heard, and turned around.

"Oh. H-Hi." I said, and he threw his bag into his locker. "Why do you seem so nervous today?" He asked, but I didn't respond. I only took his hand, and led him out of the building.

"Can we go somewhere? Somewhere private?" I asked, and he nodded, pulling me alone with him. I noticed that he was taking me to the empty football field.

We sat under the bleachers, and i sat on his lap.

"I really need to talk about something with you." I said quietly, tracing my finger down his arm.

"I'll listen." He said quietly, and I nodded a little.

"You know I have problems with my mum, and she told me last night all the things I needed to do in order for her to love me. One of them included breaking up with you, and date girls instead. I know I can't change my sexuality, but I can fake it I guess." I said, and looked up at him.

"Hold on..." He said, and shook his head, "...are you breaking up with me?"

I bit my lip and looked down. I already felt my eyes filling with tears. I hate being in this situation. I laid my head down on his shoulder, and whispered, "Im sorry, Michael."

"Why are you doing this, again?" He asked. "My mum." I whispered.

"Luke. You're seventeen. In a few months, you can leave her. You just have to push through a little longer."

"But I want her to love me." I said quietly, and he hugged me tighter. "You have me to do that." He said, and I removed my glasses, sitting them on the ground.

"But what If one day, I'm not saying we will, but what if we get in an argument, and we break up forever. Then what will I do?" I asked, and he sighed. "You'll be eighteen by then, and be able to live wherever you want by yourself. Away from her."

"But that's not what I want! I want her to love me!" I said. "You have my mum. She loves you, Luke." He said, and i thought about it. Maybe it doesn't have to be my mum. I just need motherly love. But then again; she's not my mum.

"I'm stupid. I'm stupid for even trying to get my mum to love me. I know she won't. Before I become perfect enough for her, I'll end up dead." I said quietly.

"You don't need to hurt yourself just for her. You have me, Calum, Ashton, Alex, my mum, Kellin, Jack. We all love you Luke. Even if Kellin and Jack don't admit it, they still do." He said, and kissed my forehead.

"Even though I'm super dramatic, and I stress myself out...take me back?" I asked, and pouted my lips.

"We never broke up, babe."