Adorable Confusion

Chapter 8

I look down, and notice how our knees are now basically overtop each other.

He's so much bigger than me.

I wanna say "I don't know", cause I really don't know. I've never kissed anyone before, and I don't know how it's supposed to feel.

"I guess so," I start, but then look up at him and smile. "You've never kissed anyone before, have you?"

"Not really, why?" He asks, curious.

"Cause it's obvious you don't know what you're doing." I laugh at him.

He just smiles with those big white teeth of his.

Oh my god I kissed those lips.

"Have you ever kissed anyone before?" He blushes.

"No, I don't even know if I did it right." I smile.

"That's okay, we'll learn." As soon as he says that he immediately stops smiling.

What does he mean by that?

"Did you like it?" I just need to know.

"It was okay." He says.

"Wow. It was okay?" I tease him, jokingly trying to sound offended.

"I didn't mean it like that, but this was our first kiss, and we don't know what we're doing yet-"

"Yea, I know what you're saying, but i mean, would you wanna do it again?" I interrupt his meaningless babble.

"Well, I don't know...I guess so."

"Now, just to be clear, to prevent me from overthinking things, what exactly are we?" I really need to know, and I'm really hoping he'll give me a normal, honest, clear answer.

"I mean, I don't know. I guess we could give it another shot and see how it goes, but..." He sighs, and I know where this is headed.

"But there are a lot of things in the way. Your parents, we have no classes together, and the fact that it's awkward all the time cause there's nothing for us to talk about." I finish for him.

There's a pause.

"I don't want it to have to be this way, but I just don't feel comfortable around you anymore. I'm just gonna spill everything cause it's obvious this is never gonna work out between us, so I don't really have anything to lose." I take a deep breath.

"Okay, so, it's like you have no feelings or emotion whatsoever. You never talk about your life, or what you like to do, or anything at all really. You're such a sad person. I feel like I come off too strong and emotional because you don't show emotion at all."

I put my hands in my hair in frustration.

"And I just get so fricking confused around you! You're really sweet, and I admire the fact that you don't care what people think about you, but I really really liked you, and it seems like don't wanna talk to me about it."

I put my hands back down out of my hair, and rest them on my thighs.

"I'm not "sad"...I mean, I don't go moping around, whining to people all day just because I have a sucky life." He looks down at me.

"Are you okay?" I ask him, in the most genuine way I can.

"I'll be fine. I've gotten through this far." He says.

"I'm sorry," I say quietly.

I sit up a little bit, so I can almost be at his hight, and open my arms.

"Hug?" I ask him.

He leans in and bends down, wrapping his arms around my torso while I wrap my arms around his neck.

His warm body embraces mine, and it is such a soft feeling. My heart feels cozy while it beats steadily, the pulse echoing throughout my body.

We soon release each other, and while doing so, I quickly place a small, single kiss on his cheek.

My jaw drops as I realize what I just did.

Why would I do that?!

He switches glances from my eyes and my lips a few times. Then, he leans in and kisses me again.

This time, we take it further.

(WARNING - Chapter 9 is where it starts to get dirty.. I didn't post that chapter yet, and I won't until at least one person comments what they think of this fanfic so far! :)