I was walking to class when someone 'accidentally' pushed me. I turned my head to see who pushed me, and it was Madeline. I wish I was never friends with her. Ugh, I regret being her friend. Well, we were best friends, but she doesn't deserve that title or title friend.
"Oh, sorry," Madeline said with a fake smile
"Ugh, whatever," I said and started to walk away, and then she grabbed my wrist
"Wait, aren't you going to get mad or something?" She said while turning me around to face her
"No, and let I said and pulled my wrist out of her hand. I walked to class before she could talk to me again or grab my wrist.
~two days later~
Madeline won't leave me alone, and she keeps being mean, or I guess bullying me. She keeps telling me 'you're useless' 'everyone would be happier if you were dead' 'you're just a waste of time' 'you do everyone a favor and just die already' 'no one cares about you'.
(A/n: please don't wish death a pond anyone and don't tell anyone to die because words do hurt and you don't know what someone is going through or what goes on in their life or even what is going on in their life, everyone has their own problems)
I'm in my last class when someone hits me in the head with a paper ball. I opened the paper and of course it's from Madeline oh and it's also from Maeve. I read the note and look straight at them while I rip the paper up and give the fake smile, then flip them off.
Just go die already. No one cares about you. You're useless and pathetic. No one likes you. Everyone is better off without you, so just do everyone a favor and die. No one will miss you.
- Madeline & Maeve❤
The bell rang, and I walked out of the classroom. Maybe they're right. Maybe they're not. It doesn'tmatter at least I'm not pathetic enough to put others down to feel better about myself. I try not to care, but not caring is getting hard.
I get to Ethan's car and get in. Once I get in, I put my seat belt and zone out. After 10 minutes, I'm just zoned out and thinking when I hear a voice. The voice pulls me out of my thoughts and says
"You okay?" The voice says while looking at me through the rare view mirror than looking back at the road.
It was Ethan
"Lily?" Kevin said, sitting in the passenger seat
"Hmph?" I hummed in response
"You okay?" Ethan repeats
"Yea" I said
"You sure?" Kevin asks
"Mhm" I said, nodding
We got home and I went straight to my bathroom in my room.
⚠TW⚠
I grab a random, sharp object and put it up to my wrist. I press down on the sharp object that's on my wrist, and I start to cut.
One cut for being ugly
Two cuts for being useless
Three cuts for being a waste of time
I cleaned the sharp object and put it away where I got it from. Then I sit on my bathroom floor and cry.
⚠TW over⚠
After crying for about 20 minutes, I get up and shower. I get in the shower, and I feel the hot water burn my cuts on my wrist, so I stay like that for a little while, then turn the water warm. When I was done showering, I got out and changed. After I put on my underwear and bra, I put on an Over-sized tee shirt with a black hoodie with roses on the sleeves that I got for my birthday and grey sweat pants.
I got in bed and watched a movie. After the movie was over, I got a text from Cleo.
Cleo💕
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Cleo💕
Hii
Me
Heyy
Cleo💕
Hru
Me
I'm good wbu I lied
Cleo💕
I'm good
Me
How was your day and where is Archer
Cleo💕
It was good and he's outsidddde
How was your day
Me
It was good. I lied again
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Cleo and I kept texting for a while, and then around 8:00 pm, I went down for dinner. At dinner I didn't even eat. I just played with my food. Even though it was my favorite food that my mom made.
"¿Por que no estas comiendo?" (Why aren't you eating?) My mom asked
"No tengo hambre" (I'm not hungry) I said
"¿Por que?" (Why?) My mom said "pero te gustan enchiladas" (but you like enchiladas) she said again
"I know," I said and got up, then left to my room.
YOU ARE READING
life with older brothers
RandomLilian Mae Martinez has five older brothers, and she is the only girl besides her mom. she's stuck living with her five brothers and her dad, but at least she has her mom there with her. her bestfriend Madeline Grace, they've been bestfriends since...
