Untouchable Love

I am here for you

I immediately went to hug Toni, and she just melted in my arms. I caressed her cheek with my hand and with the other I ran my hand through her hair.

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Later in the trailer
We returned in the trailer, Toni sat in the edge of the bed and looked down without saying anything. After a little while I sat down on the floor in front of her and carefully grabbed her hands..
" Are u okay? " I whispered

"No" she said and started crying again

I got up, sat next to her and whispered in her ear " Shh breathe, just breathe, okay ? "

I..- I can't anymore! She yelled and got up

" Baby calm.. " I sat up and said quietly

I tried to hug her but she pushed me away.

Toni accidentally pushed me in a place that I had a lot of scars, and it hurted, a lot .

" Ouch! Toni what the hell? "

I said as calmly as I could.

" I- I am sorry i- " she ran out of the trailer while crying

" Toni wait- where are you going? "

But she didn't hear me and got inside of her car and left " Toni...be careful! " I yelled at her before she starts the car.

After 40 minutes

" I am worried! God I called her like 14 times!  What if she is in trouble? I am so stupid..i- I what did I do ? God I care about her so much...why did she reacted like this?. I have so many questions... "

I just sat on the bed shaking from my stress and waiting for Toni... After an hour she finally came

" Omg Toni! Are you okay? Why aren't you answering your phone? " I got up and asked with tears in my eyes

She didn't say anything and just fell in my arms crying... again

She sat on the floor, and I sat too...she rested her head in my chest while we were holding eachothers hands..

" I a- am sorry " she sobbed

" Why..? Talk to me baby " I held her tighter.

" I am sorry that I pu- pushed you...god I didn't wanted to..i swear- "

" Shh It's okay Toni... "

" Really..? "

" Yeah..." I answered

" I went to my dad's and brother's grave...I just miss them so much you know.. And today the blackhood reminded to me these traumatizing moments that I am trying all these years to forget...all the memories in my head of them bleeding...I needed to stay alone for a little..to think..sorry that I left like that I- Cheryl.. "

I kissed her soft lips a few times to calm her..

" Look at me.. " I caressed her cheek

She looked at me deeply in my eyes

" Baby it's okay I understand...just talk to me when something is wrong.. I am here for you... whatever you're going through rn we are gonna go through it together, you're not alone Toni
Okay?

" Okay.. Also I am sorry for reacting like that before...I was just feeling so much pressure..not from you of course...but from all these things that happened.. happening, to me..to..you..to us "

" Yeah I totally understand...you don't have to explain, try to relax now "
I smiled

" Can we cuddle please? " She asked

" Yeah of course! " I replied

I got up and helped Toni to get up too. We cuddle in the bed under the covers..she was resting her head on my chest and I was stroking her hair slowely with my one hand and with the other I was holding her tight.

After 2 mins Toni broke the silence

" Baby? "

" Yes? "

Please...show me where I p-pushed you..

Toni it's okay... let's just forget it. I said

" Please... "

" Kay.." she carefully got on top of me and I took off my shirt to show her..

" Here " I showed her

" Mmm " she kissed the scar multiple times..I love it when she's doing that it makes feel safe..

" I am so sorry baby.. you know that I would never do anything to hurt you.. "

" I know Toni " I smiled

"It's just that I wasn't myself on that time and I was feeling like I was gonna explode "

" Baby we're fine, you don't have to explain "

" Kay..."

She leaned down again and said

" I love you " she smiled

" I love you too " I smiled back

And then we feel asleep.