𝑠𝑡𝑟𝑎𝑤𝑏𝑒𝑟𝑟𝑦 ℎ𝑖𝑐ℎ𝑒𝑤𝑠 | t. oikawa

chapter 8

"I think it's best if they tell you-"

"It's y/n isn't it?" I was taken aback and shocked. How does he know her.

"How'd you know?"

"She's my cousin. I've known ever since she's been diagnosed but I've started distancing myself around her throughout the years. All our families have because they knew they'd never take it well for their precious flower to die. I only see her in school and I always try to avoid her because I've been told not to get attached to her. She knows that and that's why she doesn't argue and just lets everyone leave her first before she can leave them." He takes a deep breath, trying to hold back his cries. "I was pretty hesitant to come to the hospital but I mean I should say goodbye properly right? And I'm scared for you Oikawa."

"What do you mean?"

"I know y/n more than anyone in the world. She will always leave a memory of her with you and that's something you really won't forget, regardless if you've spent her entire life with her or only spoke to them briefly and gets dragged to a trip to Osaka. It's not that I didn't want you to meet but more I didn't want any of you to get attached to each other because I know what will happen. And I wish that wouldn't happen and she'd just live a long healthy life" He wipes the tears off his cheek and finally lets his cries go. I patted his back as we both cried on these hospital chairs waiting for another news about y/n's conditions.

"Mr. Oikawa?" We both stood up to meet the doctor who was in a surgeon's robe and taking off his mask to talk to us. "We were able to remove as much as we could but for the others I'm afraid they are there to stay. We will monitor it over the weeks and see if they are growing and more treatment is necessary but right now she's pretty stable but asleep. Also by the looks of it, her cancer is already terminal. So of course don't think we can solve her like that as the cancer as already spread but her lungs were the most affected by it. Do you want to discuss her options and then talk to her about it?"

"No, I want her to decide what she wants."

"As you wish Mr. Oikawa. I'll leave you gentlemen alone and right now Ms. l/n's ward is closed off and no visitors tonight. Have a good night" He started to walk away back into the OR as me and Iwa slumped back to our chairs. The clock read 2 am and I've been here since 4 pm.

"I should take a bath." I inform Iwa who nods and started to play some game on his phone. There was a public bathroom for visitors but I didn't stay long. I just needed to rid off the smell from the days. I couldn't sleep yet. My thoughts were clouded of y/n and how she is. I couldn't sleep peacefully without knowing how she is and even if I find out her state is still terrible, I still wouldn't be able to sleep knowing she could slip away any moment. I changed into the clothes Iwa brought me and went back to our row of steel chairs where I saw Iwa on his second cup of coffee. "Are you staying here with me Iwa?"

"Probably not for long. If they find out I'm lurking near her more than I should, they'll lecture me all the way to graduation."

We were told to move where her room was as we were blocking the path to the Operating Room. I looked the the small window through her door. More equipment was attached to her, not a single exposed skin had something connected to it. She was sleeping peacefully and the rising of her chest reassured me. I smile at the sight and went back beside Iwa-chan. "She's still here at the very least. That's the bare minimum that I'd celebrate" He smiles and also looks through the window.

"I haven't seen her in the hospital like this. It's unfortunate I might not be able to say goodbye to her."

"I still don't understand why she doesn't tell her friends about this."

"Oikawa, she must have told you why."

"She said that she doesn't tell her friends because she doesn't want to be treated like a dying person but it feels like there's a reason why."

"She doesn't want to be treated like a dying person by her friends because she is being treated like that by her family. Those friends are the only ones that treat her like a normal person and they do that because they don't know she's about to die. But you Oikawa, it seems your special to her since you're the only one that can treat her like a normal person while knowing about her disease" I slumped down on my seat, looking up at the blinding white ceiling. "I've...I've seen you guys together and I was so happy she was happy with you. If only she wasn't about to go, I'd totally let you have her."

"Well thank you Iwa-chan. For telling me why she doesn't tell anyone and that I have your blessing, I guess?" He hits me lightly before pulling out his neck pillow.

"You're lucky we don't have school tomorrow but if I were you and wanted to spend the day with her at the earliest convenience, I'd be sleeping. I doubt she'll be awake tomorrow and if anything happens, I know she loves you. I can tell she does." He lets his head fall on the pillow, drifting off the sleep, unbothered by the lights that could blind or the noises that nurses made, trying to stabilize other patients having the worst, last, first or best days of their lives. I bite my lips, hesitant about sleep. But if anything happens to her, I'd atleast want to say goodbye last.

I folded a piece of paper and tossed it out the trash. I hope she's ok. I'll be damned if I never said goodbye.