Erase and Rewrite (Dramione)

Question and Entrust

The moment Molly Weasley's arms hug her close
she knows it doesn't work like that!
She knows she made a mistake!

The moment Dipsy leaves she knows she's alone now.
Because of no matter how brightly the nice woman smiles,
and how her husband pads her back and tells her "It's good to have you home!"
She does not remember them.

Nothing comes back.

She tells them she doesn't remember much of anything that happened before the Malfoy Manor.
And then,
because she doesn't know what else to tell them,
she tells them that some old muggle lady took care of her all these weeks.
That little by little she started to remember and found her way to them.

She doesn't tell them she was dead,
or about Draco,
because she has a feeling that they will somehow blame him.
That they will not understand.
And she is not going to take that!

They take her to The Order safe house,
where people are so happy to see her.
And she doesn't know any of them.

She feels lost,
and overwhelmed.

She tells people she has no memories,
but they treat her like nothing's different.
Talk about people she doesn't know,
events she doesn't understand.

Her brain works on overdrive trying to put the pieces together.

She misses him so,
so very much!

This was a huge mistake!

Harry and Ron are not there,
and when she asks about them everyone gets a weird look in their face.

"They needed to carry the mission, Dear." Molly says, "They were worried about you, but they needed to go on."

She feels like the woman has a need to defend them,
and maybe if she remembered more she would be upset.
Or maybe not...
Maybe the mission they were on went above everything.

With Draco she never had a need to pretend she remembered more than she actually did.
But here,
here she does that all the time.

Feels like she has to,
like they expect her to remember.

Draco always made sure she remembered!
These people just talk like of course she does,
and most of the times she just goes on pretending that's the case.

They say things like: "You can stay in the same room as last time!"
And she goes upstairs
and tries to guess which might be the room she had stayed before.

Most help she gets from a nice man who has scars all over his face,
Remus,
and his wife Dora, who'd just had a baby
and who treats her like they are old friends.

The spells still have the best effect on her
and sometimes she does get a flashback of some events from before.
But mostly it is still all blur and hazy around the edges.

The second night there she lies on her bed.
It's probably midnight but she can't sleep.
Not that she slept last night either...

The bed is cold and the room is dark.
The sheets smell weird and all the sounds of the house feel unfamiliar.
And she misses Draco so much she thinks she is going to lose her mind,
or what little she had left of it.

She was so used to him,
to his arms around her.

There's no stopping the tears.
She cries against her pillow.

Cries,
because she misses him so very much,
and because she fears the memories will never come back,
and he will never believe her.
And because he's somewhere alone.