Chapter 4: Cuts and Bruises

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Karlnap Fluff
TW! Self Harm
(pls don't read if your sensitive to the topic!!)
Context: Karl and Sapnap have rented a small apartment together since they're dating and Sapnap is about to go to the bathroom.

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Sapnap and Karl and sitting together cuddling, Sapnap is on top sitting down with one arm around the back of the sofa while Karl is laying gently onto Sapnaps lap.

Sapnaps POV

I really need to go to the bathroom, these cuts are really getting to me, but I don't want to wake up Karl. He's asleep. Ugh how should I get up...

Plus, this movies getting kinda boring since Karl isn't awake.

No ones POV

Sapnap tries to slowly get up, trying not to wake up Karl. He lifts up Karl's head and replaces his legs with a pillow. He slowly walks to the bathroom and makes sure to shut the door. Behind the basket of towels, he reached out and grabbed a greenish-back notebook and a pen.

TW STARTING NOW
He then took out a measuring tape and started to measure himself around the waist. He saw it and sighed. He wished he was skinnier. Karl probably would of liked me better, he thought to himself. He took note of the date and his measurements. He then measured around his wrists and neck, still disappointed, he wrote these measurements down. I'm still not getting skinnier, the thought. He was really unsatisfied with himself, hoping he would grow skinnier soon.

He then grabbed a razor from the same spot he got out his notebook and everything else and started to cut himself. He wrote out words like "worthless" and "fat". He tried to take back his tears while the cuts started stinging him. He didn't stop, he knew that he deserved this. Hearing all the voices in his head telling him that he's a bad person and no one would ever love him, and that he's worthless in this world, other voices also told him that he had enough living like this...

He watched as some of the blood from the cuts slowly started to drip down his wrists, he didn't try to wash them out so soon, I deserve this, he said to himself. After a couple minutes of him staring down at his wrists, he opened up the faucet and washed them away, leaving red marks on his wrists.
TW OVER

He then slowly put back everything in place hoping Karl wouldn't notice them, then he went back into the living room, seeing Karl sitting up.

"Hey!" Karl said. "Where were you?." "Oh, I was in the bathroom, did I wake you up?" Sapnap asked concerned. "No, don't worry about it" Karl smiled. They continued doing small talk until they decided to go to sleep.

The next morning, Karl woke up with the reflection of the sun on his face. He turned around seeing Sapnap still asleep, he decided to not wake up his lover and head for a shower. He grabbed out the last towel from the shelve above then hopped in while listening to some music.

After his shower, he got out and got took towel knocking down something.

It was a greenish-black notebook. He'd never seen it before. He thought that Sapnap probably just wrote down grocery items he needed so he opened it to add in some more items they needed. But instead, he saw something way more. He went through the pages in shock. He started to tear up a bit but gained his self control and got dressed walking back to his room.

Sapnap was still asleep so Karl decided that the best way to wake him up was by leaving little kisses around his face. After a couple of kisses, Sapnap finally wakes up, slowly rubbing his eyes. Once he's fully awake, they say their good mornings, but then, Sapnaps eye focuses onto something particular. Karl was holding his notebook.

"U-Um Karl.." "Yeah sweetie" Karl answered. "What are... um, what are you doing with that notebook" Sapnap asked. "I think you know what i'm doing with it Sapnap.." Karl said with a serious face. Sapnap froze, knowing that he had been caught.

The rest of the morning, they talked about Sapnap and why he cut himself. For the first time in a while, he had felt safe and Karl had promised to help Sapnap become better and care for him.

For weeks, Every morning Karl would check Sapnap, making sure he had stopped since it was the best for him. Sapnap also got rid of his notebook and realized that he wanted to go to therapy. He signed up for it and since then, he had been the happiest he's ever been in a long time. He was glad that he was able to to talk to someone and was finally happy again.

alright, well that was the end to the chapter, this one was short but not too short. the only actual reason i chose karlnap was because i'm currently watching their stream of them meeting up and omfg it's so exciting holy crap!!! like it's rlly awkward in the beginning but like it's so cute- anyways ik i'm late to watching it, i was asleep 🙄✋🏼.

anyways if you guys are ever going through something, please don't hesitate to telling me, my inbox is always open and i'll be willing to help you guys. even if it isn't a big deal and you're just really sad right now and feel like you have no one to talk to, i'm here for u guys and i really hope you guys are doing better than me (i rlly rlly hope so) and i hope you guys are staying safe!! ily all a load 🤍

also please leave me some suggestions for more ships and more ideas so i don't loose motivation (i loose motivation really easily). also sorry if this story is all around the place, i have attention time span of a 2 year old jsjdjdjsja

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