He's...gay?

Georges pov

This part is written in George's POV which means how George saw the whole thing happening.
It takes place In before he ran into Clay at the diner btw.
Hope u like it.
-Author
*TW* HEALED S3LF H@RM SCARS
TALK ABOUT S3LF H@RM
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George had just landed in Florida. It was the first time he had been to the United States, the first time he had been this close to.. Clay.

He was beyond excited.

So excited that on the plane all he had been listening to was heat waves, he knew what the fans were saying so whenever he played that song it reminded him of Clay.

A yellow taxi-cab speed up to him but he was so distracted he hardly noticed.

"Ay u George?"

The taxi driver said with somewhat of a Texas accent.

"Oh uh yea hi"

George snapped out of his trance and climbed into the cab.

Before he landed Clay told him that he should reserve a cab beforehand because in the spring lots of tourists come and use them all. Its a good thing George listened because from what he could see there were at least 10 families waiting patiently for one to arrive.

"So boy"

The driver said.

"Where you off to?"

George smiled and said.

"Well actually I'm meeting some um friends for lunch"

The taxi driver looked at him and chuckled.

"Well thats very nice but I meant what's the destination"

George hid his cheeks he could feel the embarrassment creep up on him.

"Oh right, I'm pretty sure it's called 'Katie's place'."

George looked down at his I-phone to check if one of the two had texted him. His face lit up when he saw a message from Clay that said, " Cant wait to see you gogy <3"

An hour passed but George fell asleep so he didn't notice.

" Ay George were here"

The taxi driver said in the strange accent again.

" Oh thank you so much have a great day"

George waved him off and started walking towards the diner.

"God" George thought " what if I can't tell if it's him? After all, I have no idea what he looks like"

George was so lost in his thoughts about Clay he hardly realized when he knocked into someone.

" oh my gosh I'm so sorry" the stranger said " let me help you pick up your things"

George bent down to grab his bag that he had dropped.

When he got up the stranger and his eyes met.

"Dream?" ..... "George"

Clay hugged George before he could react.

It was the best George had felt in a long time but it felt as though he had lost feeling in everything. Totally in shock that the boy he had talked to for so long over the phone and on streams was standing in front of him.

Clay was talking but George wasn't listening he was to in awe. Clay was perfect. From his jeans to his perfectly swirled blonde hair. George couldn't even talk.

George looked up realizing he was staring at two beautiful green eyes staring back at him.

" um yea we're all here together"

George saw the way Clay looked at him. He couldn't help but wonder if he, himself liked Clay more then friends...

Before he could think more about that, he starting rapidly walking in the direction of the small diner.

Once inside he saw sapnap and sat down immediately trying to choose a spot where he didn't have to face Clay.

Clay followed behind him and to George's luck sat across form sapnap.

They all ate and then started to head back to Clays apartment.

( the donut shop thing happens between this I just didn't wanna write George's part lmfao)

Once they got to his small apartment in the middle of town, George went inside and put his things down.

On the walls were baby pictures of Clay and his sister. George couldn't help but notice how perfect Clay was. His cheekbones, his lips, ... everything.

Eventually Sapnap came inside followed by a flustered Clay who was carrying everyone's bag.

George was using every ounce of his self control to avoid Clay. Which was very hard because there was only five rooms in the whole apartment.

George didn't even notice when Clay started to talk to him.

Before George knew it he opened his mouth to speak. He would soon regret it though.

"Clay" George said. " leave me the f*** alone I'm not f***ing hungry"

He saw how hurt Clay looked but managed to keep a stern look on his face.

His facial expressions softened when he realized what he had said.

He couldn't look at Clay anymore. He had to lock himself away.

He had hurt the boy that made him happiest.

George ran out of the room and locked himself in the bathroom.

He pulled up his sleeves to reveal the scars he had gaven to himself.

George looked in the mirror and told himself he was such a disappointment to everyone he met. He couldn't see Clay the next day and pretend like nothing happened he just couldn't. He had to punish himself.

George rummaged through the cabinets.

The only sharp thing he could find was a pair of scissors.

That would have to do.

Tears streaming down his face he watched the blade cut into his skin.

The fresh drop of red spilled onto the tissue underneath. Relief soared over George.

He felt better. He felt ok.

He was going to cut again but he heard the bathroom door rattle.

And a familiar voice coming don't behind...

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Ngl this made me cry writing like whyyyy whyyyyy
Hope u like tho:)