POWERFUL

Chapter 5

                THE MEMORIES

Previously.....

Welcome back Christian

After that Christian pass out because of the medicine he had a brain bleed his face was pale he had blood all over him but I noticed that his chest had marks like of cigarettes how can someone so cruel do this to someone I somehow get him my mother use to hit me and my father left me I was in my world when I heard someone yelling my name

" dr.grey " he yells

I snapped my head

" yes dr.shepherd "

" come on you are scrubbing in "

I nodded and follow him you may wonder if I still love him and I do I hate that I don't want to love him I want to hate him he clearly doesn't love me

Sometimes I just want to tell him that I love him that we can try but of course he has a wife I thought that he was my forever because I never felt like this ever before I must want to tell him that :

I'm crazy for falling this fast , but i don't care what they say you make me feel like everything's gonna be okay , that i don't have any reason to be afraid I wouldn't trade this for the world you bring me more happiness than what simply words could explain I feel butterflies each time that you reach for my hand , yet you're the reason i'm able to be this brave you truly are the greatest part of me

Suddenly he woke me up from my thoughts
"What do you think he has dr.grey" Derek asked I knew the diagnostic for being sure I read his mind and tiled my head he frowned act my action

" he has a Brain bleed we have to take him to the or right now or else he is going to die he may not wake up a 70% to him to wake up um..he is pretty healthy which means he may do wake up dr.shepherd "

Derek looked at me with a confuse face probably asking himself how the he'll did I knew that without a head ct

" great ...job-dr.grey, let's take him to CT before taking him to the OR " he ordered

CT :

I follow him looking down at Christian wondering why he feels so familiar I used my purple electric hands to his head trying to see what he is thinking I closed my eyes when everyone left the CT

" you are so familiar Christian" I said to myself I can't get through his thoughts is like they are blocked I use I used my purple electric hands forming a ball with my hands pressing to his forehead I closed my eyes trying to see his memories all I saw was a kid and a man the kid was screaming my head was starting to hurt so I quickly pulled away my hand

"Who are u "I whispered
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I was in the OR with Derek when I suddenly felt this feeling in my veins of powers " Meredith are you ok " he said with my name which I still don't understand he betrayed " I'm ok dr.shepherd " I said trying to put a line the feeling of electricity wanted to get out of my body " mer-dr.grey" he said I suddenly shake that feeling" Why is the procedure needed? " he asked me I suddenly knew the answer I always been loving neuro but is not easy with him near to me " Bleeding (hemorrhage) may require immediate decompression of the brain to release pooled blood and relieve pressure dr.shepherd he could die or looses some of his ability " I finished explained to him he looked at me surprised as I wasn't good enough but I'm not still " good " he answered and we keep going with the surgery I have this feeling that I know Christian

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After the surgery I left the OR and went to wash my hands i when Derek comes to me "Meredith - about what happened with my leg when can get you help you know before you - -" he nervous ask