(A hosie story) A new beginning after the end of a bad chapter

CHAPTER 4: the note

Hope's POV
It was the morning after i kicked Josie out after telling her about how my mother really died, i woke up with soar eyes from crying all nigh i shouldn't have told her next thing you know I'll be telling her about my father and how he was Niklaus Mikaelson 'the great evil' and that I'm a Mikaelson not a Marshall. If only she knew i was a Mikaelson she definitely wouldn't even be my friend, which would break me i like knowing she always there for me. I can't lose someone else causing me to break completely my parents and uncle Elijah was enough to have lost even though i don't plan to get that close to her as i have learned the hard way anyone close to me dies, or gets hurt which i could never forgive myself for if anything happened to Josie because of me.

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I had just finished all my classes for the day and i was heading back to my room and i see Josie. I see Josie kissing Penelope. I feel a pain in my heart like a stabbing and i snap, i start to speed up to get back to my room. I trip and fall causing Josie to look at me, we lock eyes, im staring at her deep brown eyes and i start to cry. She quickly rushes over to me to ask whats wrong i brush her of and run to my room to get away from her. I lock my door and turn to make my way to my bed but i can't walk I'm frozen from the sight i just saw, but i don't know why i started crying at the sight normally i can repress my feelings until I'm alone. I slide down the wall directly beside my door and lift my knees i wrap my arms around and i tuck my head into my legs and start to sob, when i hear a knock not wanting to get up and see who it is i cast a silence so i can hear them but they can't hear me cry. I hear a soft "Hope are you okay? What happened back there" ... it was Josie at my door, not wanting to face her i pretend I'm not there she try's to come in but realise the door is locked. I hear a faint chant realises shes trying to get in, seconds later i see my door swing open and Josie she swiftly looks around to see where i am and calls me "hope!" i make a small noise she looks down and sees me curled up on the floor. Shes not slow on to ask whats wrong shes grabs my hand to clam me when my stomach turns at the brunettes touch, the feeling was sensational but i quickly push it down and loosen her hand from her grip from me she hesitantly lifts her hand. "Hope what happened are you okay?" The brunette quickly asks to see if I'm okay, "is it about you parents?" She asks and i scoff lowly so she doesn't hear, "leave" i say faintly "what?" She says not hearing me i lift my head and she sees the tears running down my face and my red puffy eyes  "Hope are you okay what happened!" She says with a soft voice i almost tell her but instead i yell at her "LEAVE!" I said, her eyes filled with fear and sadness obviously hurt by my words. She gets up slowly "Hope pl-" the brunette speaks up "please Josie" i say in a saddened tone and tuck my head back into my legs almost immediately and she notices but she knows i want her to leave so she respects my wishes, seconds later i hear my door close gently and i wave my hand its locked again so i start to cry again.

I suddenly have trouble getting the air surrounding me flowing into my lungs... I'm having an anxiety attack, but my father taught me to not lose control to calm myself to calm myself i paint which i haven't done since i lost, well everything. I quickly try to get up struggling to breathe lights flicker as i rush to my painting area that i have set up i lift a brush and my palette with paint and start painting, i just paint freely slowing regaining my breath. About an hour late I realise i ended up painting half a picture of my father, mother, uncle Elijah, my dads short lived love Camille and me in the middle. I miss them, although i didn't really know Camille i still miss her and i suddenly fee even worse. I had an idea to help me, not a good one but one to help me calm down before a breakdown.

I write on a note saying 'hey could you come over i need to talk to you i really need you come over in 5?' With a poof of magic its gone, within 30 seconds a note appears out of thin air i had gotten a reply, 'yes of course ill be there in 5!'