Destiel; Nightmare

Cas?

"Sammy, don't." Dean said with narrowed eyes.

"Come on Dean. It's not like I don't know your bi. You watch Dr. Sexy religiously and were obsessed with Robin Hood Men in Tights when you were younger."

Dean just looked at his brother. He knew Sam wouldn't judge him. But Dean was finally happy with his life. He had a home in the bunker with his brother and blue eyed angel. This could complicate things horribly.

Dean needed these people in his life. There were loads of reasons why it would never work between them.

The major one, Cas couldn't possibly feel the same way. He was a angel. A being of celestial intent. He had sex with a angel, but heaven knows, literally, if anything would have transpired beyond that.

And Dean wanted something more when it came to Cas. He felt for him more than he felt for Cassie. More than he felt for Lisa.

He wanted to be with Cas in the purest way possible.

"Sammy...it doesn't matter."
What do you mean?" Sam asked, confused.

"Think about it Sam. Cas is an angel. He probably doesn't feel that way at all, much less about me. And I need Cas in my life Sam. It would break me if he died, but it would kill me if he left. I can't scare him away. I won't."

"Dean.." Sam began.

"Come on Sammy. No chick flick momen-"

"Dean!" Sam shouted. But not in anger, he just wanted to get his attention. He needed his brother to realize how amazing he was. How deserving he was. And right now, Dean had no choice but to talk, so Sam would make him listen. And here and now, they would lay everything out on the line.

"Look Dean, I realize that you don't think a lot of yourself. I've known that for a long time, just as I knew how completely wrong you were. But think Dean. Cas responds to the name Cas because you gave him that name. The only time I'm ever certain Cas will come is when you call him. And you two can have a full conversation through a few seconds of eye contact. You and Cas are, by far, the most amazing people I have ever known. You raised me, and deserve the world. Then you, alongside Cas, helped to save the world. You two are the most deserving people in the world. You love each other, and you deserve each other. If you tell Cas how you feel about him, I know he will say yes. And in the micro-decimal percent chance that somehow I, Bobby, Charlie, Kevin, and mom read your twos relationship completely wrong, it would take more than a uncomfortable moment to break you two. For him to leave you."

Dean opened his mouth, then closed it, unsure what to say.

"Dean I know you love him. So in two hours, I'm gonna pray for him to come here. And you two are going to sit in this room. And you're going to talk. Because even in that impossible world where he doesn't say it back, I know it will not be because of who you are. And I know he will tell you that. And more than anything else, you need to know that."
Sam got up and walked towards the open door. Dean sat still, seemingly memorized by the same spot he had began staring since this conversation began.

But at the doorframe Sam paused, and turned around. He wrapped his arms around his older brothers back, and hugged him tight.

"I love you big brother." He said, and left Dean to his thoughts.

Ladies, gentlemen, and all others.

I have finished Supernatural. And may I just say, I am so sad! I only started watching the show after it ended and I binged it all within three months. I feel so horrible that fifteen years of this is over and even more horrible because I probably shouldn't be feeling this horrible as I wasn't here when everything happened. I wasn't here when Dad went on a hunting trip and hadn't been home in a few days. I wasn't there when Destiel began it's climb to the top of the fandom stratosphere. And I wasn't even there when everyone else said goodbye to these brothers. I know for longtime fans it happened months and buckets of tears ago, but I am so sorry this journey is over for you. I felt so horribly depressed when I finished so I can't even fathom what it felt like for everyone else. I hope you all are doing okay, and I hope you know how thankful I am to you. Supernatural would not have gone on this long without your support, which means I would not have found it. I went through hell a couple times and damn if this show and the fandom that came with it didn't pull me out of the flames. Thank you.

-Adia Rose