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Jayson
Today we were going to Disneyland and K, was the most excited out of us all; well her and Christian. They were up all night, watching Disney movies and planning every place they wanted to stop at. If it weren't for me, these two would have never went to sleep.
"Uncle Chwis, you ready?" she asked with the biggest smile, revealing her missing front tooth.
"Of course munchkin" he kissed her cheek before putting her in the seat and buckling her seatbelt.
Sitting in the passenger seat, I watched Christian walk around to the driver side with a grin on his face. This nigga couldn't wait, I thought to myself. Laughing I strolled through my phone, not seeing much. Then I hopped on twitter, not much there either. Locking my phone, I turned up the radio as he drove.
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"Can we eat you two?" Los asked, Christian and K, had us running all through this park ever since we got here. We haven't even checked in the hotel, because they couldn't wait.
"But daddy, I wanna see Minnie" she whined, Los looked over at Liya who just laughed and put her hands up in defense. No one could say no to Kay, she was the cutest kid ever and never gave anyone problems, this is all she wanted; why not give it to her.
Laughing to myself, we let them go have they own fun while the guys went to get on some 3D roller coaster, my mom and aunts were tired and decided to check us in at the hotel. Which left, me and the girls. We were starving, so we went to get food.
After ordering our food and drinks, we just had small talk. I figured this would be the perfect time to tell them about the conversation I had with Christian.
"Christian wants to have a baby" I blurted out, interrupting their conversation. Everyone grew quiet, now you may think it's because of shock, which it is but my friends already know I can't have kids.
"What did you say?" Joie asked.
"I said Okay."
"Jayson!" they all blurted aloud.
"Look, please don't start. I know it's wrong that I haven't told him, but how? How am I supposed to tell this man, the man that I love, the man that has given me everything. That I can't give him, the one thing that he wants so badly. How?!" I yelled getting frustrated.
This wasn't easy for me, every night I watch how Christian is with my niece and it burns a hole in my chest because no matter how much love he gives her it will never fill the void of him having his own child.
"We just want to know, why did you lie?" Jess said softly gently touching my hand.
"Because I'm not hundred percent sure if I can't get pregnant, I was told my medicine would slim my chances, but it's not impossible." Yes, I still had hope about getting pregnant. Even when I knew deep down, I may be lying to myself.
