ALDONN
It's 10pm. I can’t sleep. I have a lot of thoughts in my head after our conversation in IG. I have a lot of what ifs. I have a lot of questions bugging in my mind. I have a lot of words unsaid. I have a lot of thoughts that seem to be better unsaid. Or maybe not. I don't know.
I get up and went to my kitchen. I need alcohol. I took a wineglass and poured wine to it. I take a sip while staring blankly, I was too preoccupied by my bestfriend.
Althea. My best friend Althea. My love, Althea.... Yes, my love Althea. I had no idea when it all started or when I fell in love with her. I just woke up with Althea occupying my mind all day and night, not leaving. I thought of her every time.
I was with her since high school. Back then, I was thinking that maybe I was just concerned with her, that maybe I was worried because of her first heartbreak.
FLASHBACK
"Hush, Althea. It's okay." I was hugging Thea while stroking her back. She's hurt. Really hurt because of her boyf-EX BOYFRIEND.
That douchebag left Thea and go with someone else. Fucking as*hole. I balled my fist out of anger. I wanted to punch that jerk. The nerve to broke my bestfriend's heart.
"Cry all you want. It's okay. I'm here Althea. Your feelings and emotions are valid. It's okay, you will be okay." She hugged me back and continued crying. I'm hurt that she's hurt. She deserve the best. She doesn't deserve to be treated like how her ex treated her. And it angers me most to see her crying.
"It hurts Donn, I'm so hurt. I should've been a better girlfriend. He might've stayed if I was better. I should've, I-i shouuld h-have.." Fvck. I wiped the tears on her cheeks that continuously flow. I cut her off.
"No Althea. He doesn't deserve you. And you don't deserve a jerk like him. You deserve the best and he is not the best. Remember that." I just wish that we don't cross our paths because God knows what I can do to him. I swear.
She slept crying in my arms. Oh God, my poor Althea.
PRESENT
I didn't notice that I emptied a bottle of wine and few shots of hard drinks. I'm drunk.
"What are you doing Aldonn. Fvck."
I went back to my room and reached my phone and absent-mindedly dialled and called....
"Hello... Oppa?"
God, her voice is so pleasing to hear. I didn't respond.
"Donn? Oppa? Why are you still up? It's almost 2am."
I still didn't talked. With eyes closed, lying on my bed, I just listened to her. Her voice is so calming. I can hear her talk all day. I would love to. I would, If only I could.
"Altheaaaa.." I finally have the courage to talk.
"Aldonn? Are you drunk--"
"I love you Althea." I whispered.
"Of course you do. Love you t--"
I ended the call before she finished talking. I know she loves me too.. as her bestfriend, of course. I don't know what to do. I am going crazy. Why do we have to be just bestfriends? Why the hell did I fell in love with my bestfriend? Why do I have to suffer like this? I often think of confessing my feelings for her but I can't afford to lose her. I can’t afford to lose our friendship. What if she doesn't feel the same way? What if it is only a one sided love? I am surely gonna lose her. I CAN'T LOSE HER.
"Fvck this life."
