Forever on my Mind

Life

Life just keeps kicking me down. Well, I say fuck that bitch. If she wants me down it got to be six feet under.

I use to not think like that.

Hi, I'm Yasmina Winters. Birthday October 31. I was a happy baby. Bouncing, giggling the whole round. Then when I turn 8 things change. For the worse. My parents had happily married then my dad met someone else. Unfaithful. In so they split and he left me behind. Then, my mom, she seems to have gotten herself together but she didn't. She started falling apart and so I started to do things to keep food in my stomach. I started acting out in school and then my uncle Charlie had to be called. He came and my mom got arrested for something I don't even think about. He had my things packed and we had the next flight to Forks the following day.

I hated it at first. It was a small town and everybody was in your business. I hated people like that. I stop speaking altogether when folks want to talk to me.

Though to myself I always wanted to do something bad. Then mom passed. Dad wasn't even there at the funeral so I somehow found my way to his home with his 'loving' new family and beat his ass. Not the first time been in jail. Soon Charlie went off on me saying I had to do better. I had to be my own person and not be my parents.

That did wake me a bit. I then started coming out of my shell a bit more. I started cooking and loved it. I did teach Charlie a few things that he didn't end up burning somehow.

Like how the fuck do you burn water. How!?

Anyways I started focusing on school. How to outdo everyone but still be me. A badass that will kick any dude or bitch ass when need to.

No one would believe I had a high GPA. I still got in trouble every once in a while. 

Then I was introduced to the Quileute tribe. They were cool to get to know as I wanted to know the history and here they are right from the source.

Then Bella starts coming around. On God, that girl is a mess. Always made it about her like bitch get a life. She didn't even want to be there and the bitch is disrespectful calling Charlie by his name behind his back. Like the fuck. He yo daddy. Be glad you have both your parents. She makes it seem like she had a hard life.

I will say what Renee doing is fucked up but if you really wanted to leave. You could. Nobody wants to waste their time trying to mother a grown-ass woman.

Why are you ranting to me about it? Go to Charlie for this. 

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One time this girl thought she was slick and tried it. Oh no, hun. It's on. So I got her silly ass back.

I made it look like she peed herself in front of the boys. 

She came back a few more times before she stopped altogether.

Doing that time I started getting into music. I loved it.

I don't think I had a specific genre I like. Everything just kind of connected with me. In some shape or form.

But then I'm starting to get into other things. Something more than with me. I noticed something about me. Something I also notice about Bella.

I was hungry for men's attention. I didn't have to go far for it. So I went exploring. I went to Seattle and I got my first job. And I haven't left since.

Then a strange family came to Forks. Dr. Carlisle Cullen with his wife and adopted children. Everyone at school wanted to be their friends, get to know them, everything. But to me, Yasmin didn't care. I saw nothing interesting about them. I just stayed in my Lane and avoid theirs as much as I could. I had a few classes with some of them well the older children out of the group.

Then the Pixie Girl. Alice. Wanted to start talking to me. I wasn't going with this shit. I cannot stand anything peppy. So I 'kindly' told her to piss off. She hasn't tried since.

Her boy toy has been giving me these hard stares. So one day I turn to him and say.

"You want to fuck or something?" I said.

I could have sworn I saw a smirk.

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Life really does like kicking you in the balls.

Bella moving in.

AHHH FUCK.