three girls one boy

forgiveness is key in any friendship

"Clara. Hey. Your awake." Said the doctor "I thought, well. We thought you would be on conscious longer. How are you?" Asked the doctor kindly. I couldn't really reply that well or even that much because I needed a sip of water but my body was unable to be moved at all. I couldn't even move my lips to be able to talk.

"Hey Clara. I'm Doctor boulivent. I know your probably thinking why is my body not being able to be moved yet. It is nothing bad we just had to put you under a lot of anaesthetics as you were in a lot of pain remember and you went unconscious for about 10 minutes but we though that it would have been longer." I tried to smile but it hurt to the point a tear rolled down my cheek, "at ok Clara don't cry although yes that might help you to get a liquid it won't be that much for you to have for good. Take a sip from here it will help you better." She exclaimed.

It sort of smelled a bit but I took sips and then proper drinks from it afterwards it was all fine until......

"Doctor Boulivent. Good job" exclaimed the other doctor excitedly. I was sick. I was sick and nearly missed the bucket. I was far from being ok and I knew it. But that's what you get for being this I'll all the time.
"Why do I always feel like this Doctor," I asked as I laid in my hospital bed.

"Clara. We dont know what's wrong with you. We're so sorry, you dont have cancer, your dont have infections, you dont have any diseases, your not in any part or form of any pain either so we are really not sure Clara." Everything was blurry, I felt as if I was going underwater being drowned, "Clara, stay with us please. Tale deep breaths and take a little dri k from this but no to much please," I could only muster what the doctor said so I did as he asked. Everything was suddenly clear again and I didnt feel like I was under water being drowned, "Thank you doctor," I was still worried and concerned about exactly what was happening to me and I felt like I was going to struggle for the rest of my life now.

"However Clara I do need to say something that will sound as if your in danger or even trouble but your not your really not in danger or trouble I promise while you were dazed and about to pass out just before a nurse came and told me that there could be a reason behind the coughing up of blood and the passing outs, during school and at home," I was scared to know but I knew that I had to find out so I could stop it and start to get myself to go straight back to being normal again. "Clara it seems as if your under a lot of stress so as a result your passing out a lot and coughing up blood as well." Before the doctor could respond I knew what I had to do.

I couldn't keep it all in I knew that everyone was literally here with me but I had to it was going to come out wether I liked it or not and....I knew it was just gonna be blurred out.

"Doctor, I know you not the right person for this but I'm sorry I just have to tell you and I dont care about the others, in struggling. I really am. You dont know what's wrong with me and think its stress. Well that's amazing however I cant help being stressed when I have so much work being set from the school and yes I do feel stressed by it I just cant help it because I want to get the best grades in school that I can get, Doc you have been my doctor since my mans accident that night, you have always treated me whenever my dad rushed me into A &E like today and you have always treated my dad, and probably my nana and grandpa too. But you try to keep me hidden away from the truth and that wont help at all and why? Because I dont want to be here no more. You never told me about my grandpa cancer why did no one tell me I dont know so guess what, my grandpa had to tell me because I was co instantly asking him if he was ok and why he had a box of needles and a box if chemo treatment for medication but as tablet form. So my grandpa had to tell me about it, and then guess what I found out a few weeks ago that my dad has cancer the same ans my grandpa and I know my dad wont survive it and why? Because my grandpa was told the same and they were both told off you doctor, oh and did I mention I dont want to be here no more because I cany take the pain no more. I want to be with my mum and nana up there in heaven with my white as white could be wings behind me to help me fly up there, and I could end it all and why could I do that? I can do that doctor, because no one cares enough to keep me here literally no one. I dont even know what to do no more. The way my friends had been treating me in the last week didnt helpneither and why? Because their treat me like everything was my fault and on top of that I could get a single moment with them and why, because they would walk the other way. I dont know if I can forgive them but I will have to but as fakly as I could and why because I have to have time to be able to forgive them and it's so not fair because I cant be the one to make the choices no more it should have been me to die not my mam, well not my mum. But I have to keep going and why, because then I cant fulfill my list of 100 places to go before I doe and yes I have exactly 100 places in one of my books that my mom gave me when I was 7. I cant do this anymore I really cant......" this was it I was going to explode my anger was raising up I was about to scream at everyone to fuck off. Well, that's what I did, I told everyone to fuck off at the same time as a familiar voice spoke outside my door.

"GO. LEAVE ME ALONE!!! GET OUT!!!@." This was it, "FUCK OFF!!!," as I screamed those words out everyone left my room including the doctor and I was left with a glass of water and I was in tears, as my tears streamed down my face I took sips sometimes it was mouthfuls of even little gulps of water just to make me not feel sick. And that's when I heard it. The familiar voice with her familiar name, and the name of a man I could never forget. Ever.

"Does anyone know were I could find Clara, I was told that she is a big fan if me and that she has brought to this hospital as she passed out after being sick blood in high school??" Asked the lady in themist ggorgeous top landing skirt ever. "I'm sorry are you Miss Louise. Miss Jenny Lousie-Vastra Coleman? The most awesome actress ever??? Asked Astrid.

"Yes, yes I am here, you can have this," I could see her taking off her cardigan but I had to make a distracting. So I dropped my phone on the floor as well as the remote for the tv. Without a doubt it was exactly enough to get Jenny's attention.

"Hey it's ok, I got you, you just sit back and.....wait....I'm sorry are you Clara?? Clara Oswin Oswald???" She asked, I could smell her strawberry-ness and the mint-ness coming from her "ummm, yeah. That me??? I'm sorry who are you?? You just look sort of familiar and sound familiar that's all!!?? I asked as politely as I could.

"DOCTOR!!!! CLARA IS HERE" Her soft voice shouted to the one and only doctor who I had ever saw once, but that was off TV, when I would watch the one and only Doctor who. "I'm Jenny Louise-Vastra Coleman. But you can call me Jenny. Most people do. DOCTOR HURRY UP!!" I couldn't believe my eyes. It was actually Jenny Louise-Vastra Coleman. The one and only who played Clara Oswald, Oswin Oswald, Miss Montague, Soufflé girl, and The Inpossible Girl in doctor who. I was such a fan if her especially as she was the only actress I had looked up to for a while.

"Alright. Alright. I was being attacked by Daleks. Give me a fucking break Jenny." It was at that moment that the one and only Doctor had decided to join us. I had to. I just had to.

"Doctor??" I asked, Jenny was looking at me and smiled she knew what I was going to say, "Do the hours Clara," said Jenny. I was really excited for this, and The doctor looked even more excited too. "Doctor. Doctor Who?" I squealed and jumped up and down in happiness. I even did it in my best Miss Montague accent as I could, and that made Jenny smile at me and get excited to. "Well doctor.??? You cant leave a girl hanging can you??" I asked. Ir really wanted to know, I knew he as the doctor but. Doctor Who. Nobody knew but I wanted to know. Especially now. I wanted to know now incase I never found out especially now that I might never get better.

"Clara........Oswin.........Oswald......." I was starting to become worried no one ever called me by my full name unless I was at a doctors or if I was ever in trouble. I shouldn't have started to think like that because now J had this thought that I would all of a sudden be in some sort or form of trouble. But not just that I had zoned out and I was not contact able when Inwas in this state.

"Clara. Is everything ok.????" Asked jenny "Clara!! Doctor help me Clara has zoned out. You need to slap me." I couldn't here what she said never mind seeing what she was saying by reading her lips Iw as completely out of it all together.

"What!! Why!! Are you mad??" Asked the doctor "Kenna Lousie-Vastea Coleman I am funky going to fucking hut you now grow the fuck up before I........" it was at that point where Inhad snapped out if it and tried to grab for my glass of water but was to weak and was on the edge if passing out. "Clara it's ok, just lay back I will get your glass" it was as if Jenny had already done this before. Her body stretched over the top of mine and once again the strawberry-ness and mintness had hit me but it hit me harder. I could tell that she had been chewing on the extra minty fresh mint gum because it was strong. However the strawberry just felt like I was in strawberry fields, when it all happened. I felt the soft tenderness of someone had my hand and hold the back of my knock I couldn't make out how it was but they were helping me to drink my water and they helped me to sit up. I grabbed their arm and they stopped but I didnt want them to. I told them to continue helping me, it was what I needed right now. For someone to help me through all of this.