"SEVENTEEN SERIES"

THE FORBIDDEN LOVE

"AGE GAP"

“Age doesn’t matter, when you love someone who is older than you.”

Hearing that from a high school student, who had a crush on a collage student was like, eww…
But never did I thought that one day I’ll be swallowing my own words.

A handsome business man----- no scratch that, AhothandSOMEMANWHOHADNATURALREDLIPSLONGLASHESWELLBUILTMAN!

Pheww… let me catch my breath first.

Inhale.

Exhale.

Hooo…

As I was saying, I once met this man who is insanely handsome!

Just his little gesture can make a woman droll from him!

Just how he brush his hair using his bare finger, talks using his ‘melody in my ears’ voice, walk lime a model and his smile!
His damn precious gummy smile that can make my world turn into heavenly paradise!

“Class dismissed!’’ our professor announced and faster that the speed, I dashed out before our professor do.

“Just when  ms. y/n became so excited for the class dismissal?”

‘long ago, prof.’ I answered inside my head.
Excitedly running, smile drew until…
Phew, there you are.

I catched my breath before occupying the bench that was placed a meter away from me.
I’m sure that if someone see how my eyes dazzled over him, might think that I’m his avid fan and… they are right ‘bout it.
But not just a fan but a admirer for almost one year.

Since I became a senior high, I once saw him walking at the park while wearing his simple clothing, that had made me to have a ‘crush at the first sight’ on him.

Until I saw him again and again and  even tried to approach and confess my cute appreciation  to him but got surprise of what I’ve found about him.

A 27 year old man and soon to be holder of a company.

Seriously!? A 17 year old woman falling inlove with a 27 year old business man, just imagine of what ou my parents reaction  will be.

“Are you insane!? He is way more older from you! 10 year------”

Probably, that will be their reaction but I don’t care, lol I haven’t make a move yet.
And if I’ll graduate earlier than soone, then I can make myself a grown woman for him, genius right?

So my first move is to study hard and marry him! Kidding, what I meant is, if I study hard and graduate I can make myself work on his company and…. Secret. We’re in the first move, so yeah that’s it.

Thankfully after alots of struggles I am now able to step inside of his own company and work.
But my hopes became invisible when I hear the gossips that he is already engage to someone… for a business matter and that’s when my hopes became visible again!

Look it’s only for a business matter so, to think of it he don’t have a affection towards her and that’s means… I’m still able to made him mine.

Mwehehehehe….

But just unlike what I have watch on tv, that age doesn’t matter the happenings in real life were never the same.

Him getting closer to her while me, became afar.
Watching her how her little gesture can make a man droll over her, how she tucked her hair, talks using his sweet voice, walk like a model and her smile.

Her smile that can make his world turn into a heavenly paradise.

Made me think that I’m nothing compared to her.
Truth hurts, haha.

She is a perfect for a man’s ideal, while me, just an average.

Guess, they were really destined for each other…
Both are insanely gorgeous, both are rich and both are in the same age. A perfect couple indeed.

And that’s hurt me the most. I was never suited for him and I can’t accept the fact that he is slowly falling for her, but…

Try to accept when he confessed a matter to me.

“Ms. y/n, since then, you were looking at me like that. Senior high days, I often see you around exactly 4:00 pm just have a peek. See at the park and even see you now, looking at me with the same look after years. And you know I can’t like you have not because of our status but because of our age gap.i am way more 10 years older and that’s explain why. Find someone who is in the same age as yours, don’t lock yourself into 31 years old man, like me. Find someone.”

And now walking down the aisle, seeing him in his suit was the happiest moment in my life.
Feeling the backgrounds song, reminiscing the past. My steps become eager to reach him and when I did, a smile drew on his face, so did I.
I averted my gaze to the man beside him.
He look at me happiness was written as he walks near at me and reach my arm.

“shall we?” he ask and I nodded as we starts pacing.

I’m happy that finally, I was able to look at him in a different look, now. Happy that found someone who has almost the same age as mine. And that is no  other than his younger brother.
Choi Chan.

The man that made me feel the real diffination of love.

The man, that gave me the attention and feelings, I’m seeking for.

The man that see me as his universe, the man that I love the most.

Funny to think is, when I finally moved on and found someone, the time when he confessed his real feelings to me.

“y/n… do you remember when I push you away, that was the day I regret the most. The day that, I wish never happen. If I can turn back the time, I would gladly embrace the shits that will embrace me. but just like who I am, I cowardly hid my feelings and pretend to be fearious to push you away. y/n, I call me fool, jerk, coward. But can you accept my feelings? My feelings that I hid for five years?”

Five years.

Five years, he hid his feelings towards me and I accept that but he is too late. Too late for me.
And I hope that he’ll accept it.