why do i miss them so much? i find myself thinking about everything that i've done wrong, even late at night.
why do i do this?
i miss them so much it hurts just thinking about it
i always knew they would leave eventually, but why does it still hurt so much?
was everything my fault?
was there something i could have done to make things better?
i hate this
i hate pondering on my questions that will only stay unanswered
i hate how i can't express myself, even though i really am trying my best
i know they're all probably just talking shit about me left and right
but if that's the case, why should i care? i should stop wasting my time caring about people who never cared about me to begin with.
we were going to be separated in high school regardless. this was going to come sooner or later
in 10 years, i'll be grown up, wondering why the hell i worried so much about something so small. i might not even remember any of this
we would have grown more distant even if we were still close today
but even despite these things, why do i want them to come back, even though i know that they never will?
i deserve this don't i?
still, please tell me what i did wrong so i can have at least one less thing to stop worrying about.
i'm sorry. i really am. i'm sorry i can't communicate, i'm sorry that i was never enough, i'm sorry i didn't help you when you were so clearly in pain, i'm sorry that i was never there.
i still miss them. i miss them so much.
