Summer walker is amazing! T.J and I connected over our love for her every day. "Nobody else" blasting in the car every time we see each other. Staring in each others eyes, just singing. This felt too right... it was going way too well. T.J reminded me of Home. I only had this feeling once before, which was with the Mystery man. They had the same demeanor, the same smile, the same eyes. It's only been seven months of friendship and a month of being lovers. Could I indeed be in love? Do I want to go back down this road?
"Just might be your hoe" started softly playing in the background. Is that a sign? I couldn't allow myself to feel lost again. I was now Mystery man. I was dark and vulnerable, and T.J was my light, but I knew I wasn't his only one. He always reassured me that I was, but I knew I wasn't. Or was I? I didn't want to trust him. He was my friend but giving my heart again to someone was something I couldn't do. I was now damaged. He had so much patience with me. With every sweet thing, he said, my face would go into "why you always lying" mode. I hate that I allowed someone to break me so bad that I can't let in my new potential. T.J would always laugh when I would say he is lying . Is he not mad at me? I didn't annoy him? Wow, he truly is magical. "You got potential" started playing after that, and I just knew I couldn't let T.J go just yet. I have to figure out to heal for him and me.
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Diamonds Journey
RomanceFollow Diamond along her journey of heartbreak in her everyday journal entries. She is going through a long process, but in the end, will she realize how of a diamond she is.
