Numb- Larry Stylinson

Chapter 5

//Harry's POV//

Louis Fucking Tomlinson just said he was in love with me. I need out of here. I need to see him. I have to tell him I love him too!

I think as Louis runs out. I call for him but he doesn't reply. I feel so tired.

So I lay down. And then i fall into a restless sleep.

//Time skip to when Harry gets out of hospital//

We're walking to the bus and I can't help but ask the boys where Louis is, because he didn't come back last night or today. "Oh, I think he's in the bus asleep...He was asleep in your bunker..." Liam replies. What? He was asleep in my bunker? Should I...? "Um...Okay..." I mumble after a moment of silence.

Niall and Zayn walk in first, and then Liam and I walk in. I say to the boys "Can you guys not go back there for awhile? I need to talk to Louis...Alone..." I say quietly. "Sure mate. We won't bother you!" Niall says. I mumble a quick thanks.

I walk down the hall, to where the bunkers are and i walk in. Like Liam said, Louis is asleep in my bunker. I think about it for a moment, and then I walk over, take my shirt and pantsoff so that i'm in my boxers like Louis, and lay down with him. I try not to wake him, but it doesn't work. "Mmm Harry..." He says in a tired voice. God his morning voice... "Yeah Lou?" I say as I wrap my arms around him. "Go back to sleep baby" I whisper in his ear. He shivers. I think he came to realize that this wasn't a dream, because he turns extremely fast and looks and me, then he pushes me off the bed.

"What the hell are you doing sleeping with me you faggot?!" Louis says angry. "The fuck Louis?! Your the one in my bed! And you fuckng said you loved me last night! Why the fuck are you acting like this again?" I ask even more angry than Louis. " Oh...Right...Sorry." He answers, not looking me in the eyes. he gets up and starts to walk over to his bunker but I grab his hand and pull him to me. "I love you too, Lou" I whisper in his ear, and without another word, I lay down in my bed and fall asleep.

//Louis POV//

//Time skip to when Harry wakes up//

Before Harry woke up, I just sat there in my bed stunned. Harry loved me to? This has to be a dream...Did I even tell Harry that i loved him? I pinch my arm to see if i would wake up. I didn't.

Harry woke up about 5 minutes ago. he is still laying in his bed though. I'm staring emotionlessly at the wall. I feel weird. Like I fell into a black hole or something. All the thoughts consume me. I wonder if this is how Harry felt? This overwhelming darkness. You don't feel anything. You just feel numbness in your brain. actually, everywhere. You feel like you can't even move.

""LOUIS?! EARTH TO LOUIS!" Harry yells, waving a hand in my face. I look up and say in a monotone voice "What do you want Harry" He looks at me funny. "Louis...I asked if you wanted some lunch...I'm hungry so I was going to go make something" He says. "A fat ass like you doesn't need food. You should starve yourself. Maybe you'll be less fat" I say, still in a monotone voice, without really looking at him. Harry looks down, and I know he has tears building up in his eyes. "Okay..."

//Harry's POV//

Fine. If he thinks I'm fat, then i probably am. So i'll try to be perfect for him. I will be perfect for him. I will from now on only eat one meal a day. If that. Louis did say I should starve myself so...I should. I don't deserve food anyways. I think as I walk into the kitchen, sitting next to Niall.

"Harryyyyy mate, how are you? Wait... Have you been crying?! Harry whats wrong?" Shit, I was crying?! "No man, I just woke up and i was rubbing my eyes. And i'm okay. My arms hurt like hell, and my insides feel like their liquids, but other than that i'm just great." I answer. "Good. Want something to eat? We brought home mcdonalds! By the way, we're leaving in an hour to go to the UK, Managment gave us a week break"

He replies. "Okay, and no i'm not very hungry" Good. Thats a good start. Always refuse any food offered to you. especially fast food. I walk into the the TV room and sit down, just as Louis is walking in. He looks my way and says "Thought you were going to eat something?" I shake my head. "Wasn't up to it" I say, not looking him in the eyes. I can't lie to him. "We're leaving in an hour to go to the airport to get to the UK, so pack up" i say. Louis just stands there for a few seconds and then he sits down next to me. He turns to look me in the eyes and i notice how close we are. He looks and my lips and I look at his. He leans in, and then before i know whats happening, we're kissing.

Louis slowly moves into a more comfortable position, which just so happens to be my lap. My hand trails up to his cheek and i brush my thumb over his jaw. he licks my bottom lip, asking for entrance, and i grant him it. we're full on making out now, and it feels amazing. He tastes like mint and strawberries. I hear him moan a little which makes me moan. "Ew! You gross faggot! Why the hell did you just kiss me?!" He says, as he jumps up. but i know he doesn't mean it, because he has a boner.

"Louis, you have a boner, and if you didn't notice, you were the one who started it. and to be honest...I liked it..." i say confidently. "Of course you did! Your a faggot! you like dicks being shoved up your ass! I dont! now get the fuck out of my sight!"

And of course, I listen to him.

I walk into the bathroom and shut the door and lock it. I turn the water on and jump in. I sit there and think about life, and then I remember what happened last time so i stop thinking, and start washing my hair and body. I look around for a razor, because i need to shave, and i don't see any. Thats weird, the boys always leave their razors in here. mines gone too. EW! who the fuck took my razor?!

"WHO THE HELL TOOK MY RAZOR? I NEED TO FUCKING SHAVE!" i yell out to anyone who is listening. "Harry...We had to take them out. The doctor told us to. You can't have a razor unless there is someone watching you, making sure you don't...you know." Zayn says. "Well I need a fuckin shave" I hear talking outside the door, it sounds like Louis and Zayn. I hear the door open. It's Louis. "Here Harry. Shave. But i have to stay in here. and he doctor also said we have to do daily body checks, just to make sure you haven't hurt yourself again." I give a heavy sigh. "I'm not the only one who should be checked, now am I Louis?" he looks down.

After Louis hands me my razor I begin shaving. I can't help but think that i could break this razor open without him even finding out...NO. I will not. Not while he is in here. "Harry, are you done yet?" "Almost."

I hand him the razor, and I'm pretty sure he put his hand on mine to grab the razor on purpose. When i feel his skin on mine, I feel tingles run up my hand and arm. My god, i'm such and idiot.

I turn the water off and get out of the shower, completely naked with Louis sitting on the counter. He just eyes me up and down, and i see he has a boner.Again. he keeps staring so i say "Like what you see?"

And he looks back up at my eyes. "Of course not, asshole" He says as he stands up and starts to leave. But I don't let him. I grab him by his shoulder and i push him against the wall. i palm him through his jeans and he moans. "Do you like that Lou?" "Mmm yes Harry. Harryyy" He moans. I feel myself getting hard also. "Harry. Harry touch me. Please." I love how he gets all needy and desperate. "You want me to touch you? Or are you just going to push me away again?" "No no no. please Harry. Please"

I pull down his pants and boxers, and i grasp him in my hand."Fuck, Harold!" he moans really loud as I begin to stroke him. "Shhh baby be quiet. We don't want the boys to come in here do we." I say. I stroke him until he is about to come, and then i stop touching him. "Just admit that you like guys Louis. Because straight guys down get hard from seeing their best mate naked" I say. "Im not fucking straight Harry. Please. Please touch me. make me come." he moans out. I nod and i then get on my knees and then i suck him off. he comes hard in my mouth and i swallow all of it.

"We can't do this again Harry. I have a girlfriend, and i don't like you. I'm bisexual not gay." Lie. "But i will give you something in return for doing this for me" He says, as he lowers his head and begins to suck me off. I come a few minutes later and then we make out for what seems like forever, but was probably a minute.

We seriously just did that. wow. "Nevermind. maybe we can do that more often. But it doesn't mean anything. and if you DO want to keep doing that, you need to stop being a fat fuck. God, lose some weight!" he says. "Anything for you Louis"

"Harry, Louis, are you okay?! We thought we heard something and it sounded like one of you was hurt" Liam asks, opening the door.

SHIT!