Rising from the ashes

Prologue

In America every 98 seconds a woman is sexually assaulted. In 2018 17.7 million American woman where abused or sexually assaulted by a stranger or someone close to them. In Canada statistics show 1 and 3 woman are abused or raped. In my experience with the woman I know in my life, including myself all living in Ontario, it seems like 2 and 3 woman have been abused, raped or molested as a child. Someone you know at some point mostly likely has been abused, raped or molested and you wouldn't even know it. Sadly 133-275 million children worldwide are molested or abused by a family member, or family friend. The fact is victims of these violent acts have learned away of coping or blocking the trauma out over time. We are all suffering in some way in life. For some of these victims these traumas have away of effecting their entire life and create a pattern or ripple effect on their future. It becomes the only thing they know and become untrusting of men, or anyone, even a nice compliment can trigger a feeling of fear inside. The damage that is done to the victims is crippling with ups and downs of thoughts, exhaustion it becomes a life long battle. It can take a lifetime to overcome this from some, and for others it can end up meaning the end of their lives. Through all of this the survivors of assault never know if they can ever feel normal or fully happy inside themselves again.

This is for anyone who has had enough and wants to give up on their like don't. Life has more out there for you. Everyone is going through something in life, never judge a book by it's cover. We all have battles we are dealing with everyday. Treat everyone how you wanted to be treated. I promise life has more out there for you. If you have ever suffered abuse in any way, we give trigger warnings now.

This the story about Vanessa, a woman who through all her trauma in her life she has survived to make it through. She has learned a lot about life and learning from her mistakes in life. Whether they where the mistakes of trusting and loving others who didn't love her in return. How she dealt with losing loved ones who where the only ones she could turn too. How certain traumas in her life had a ripple effect creating a pattern in her life, one of loving people losing herself just to feel they loved her. How certain answers about who she is and where she came from in the beginning of her life, help make her stronger, and helped her heal finding her spiritual side, and inner happiness and peace inside her soul. When things she found out about her family and the connections they all had in life, how it seems like even in distance somehow your all connected to each other. How it took a lifetime of trauma, up and downs to find herself. Her family history how it seems to have away of repeating itself in her life growing up, and her adult life as well. How her past trauma effected her future relationships, her confidence in herself. How she learn to except her past, to forgive and overcome it all.

THE BEGINNING:

Its was a Tuesday back in march 1981. Vanessa was born to parents 26 and 33. She was the youngest of their 4 kids. However they had things they where dealing with, so to they wanted better for all of their kids. Vanessa was adopted by 2 parents the day she was born. They where late 30s and early 40s. She was the last of her birth parents babies to be adopted. Over the years for reasons Vanessa would come to understand one day, her birth parents had 4 children though out their relationship together, all 4 babies where giving up for adoption at birth. She was described as plain looking white blonde hair and big bright blue almond shaped eyes. Her adopted dad Al, he would tell her growing up how special, beautiful she was, that she was his little Disney princess. He would tell her that her eyes had melted her parents hearts. She had a pretty some what normal childhood. Dad had good career working for a energy company in downtown Toronto, mom worked in an office part time, even though she didn't need too. They where a well off family money wise something that never interested Vanessa. She just like being in the forest, hikes with her dad animals, sports, playing games with her friends. When she was the age of 5 her parents sat her down and explained she was adopted, she understood what her parents where telling for some reason.