Rising from the ashes

You put on a good act again

For the next few days Ryan came and went everyday. Vanessa spent her time with kids. Than it happened it was July 28th. The weekend, the kids where going with grandparents again. Vanessa went to the gym, when she came back home afterwards. Ryan was in the living room kitchen area. Vanessa looked at the love of her life she knew longer knew, he was a stranger to her now. She told him today is his D day. He looked at her asking for more time. She walked into there bedroom packing her clothes to go to Natalie's. Ryan didn't know she had a plan her the kids and dog  could go live in Natalie basement. Natalie and husband fixed up their basement in the past year turning it into a 3 bedroom apartment. They knew about Ryan's cheating and kept it quiet from everyone. Ryan heard her crying in their bedroom, he came in and was shocked that she was packing. She told him she was done. She was going to a friends with kids and dog. They figure it all out. Ryan begged her for more time, she told him no she loved him more than anyone, but she didn't have enough love to do it for the both of them. He left and went into the living room. When she came to put her bag by the front door, Ryan told her he wanted his to fix their marriage. She looked in shock and said than call or text Lexi at least have some respect for her to end it right now. Ryan went into the bedroom closed the door, when he came out he said, he was going to see Lexi and end it. She agreed saying fine but giving him 2.5 hours as Lexi was an hour drive away. He agreed.

Ryan left the house, Vanessa went to her friends in Oakville, in tears. Julie opened the door saw her thinking someone had died. Vanessa told her about Ryan's cheating and that he drove to see his other woman to end it. She stayed at Julie's for a while not realizing hours have pasted. Eventually she left Julie's and drove around, she tried texting Ryan he hardly responded. She got hurt and mad, by 9pm she texted DONE to him. She was at her parents grave than, she sat there for a while. She drove some more refusing to go home. She ended up at Sammy's grave and lied down beside his grave. She loved him like a little brother, she was crying to him. Her phone kept going off, Ryan had been texting non stop, she ignored them. He texted her asking where she was that he went home she wasn't there, Julie texted her saying Ryan was looking for her, he went by her house. She told Julie where she was, but said her isn't to know she didn't want to see Ryan at all. 

Midnight, she had fallen asleep at Sammy's grave, next thing you know Ryan was a Sammy's grave waking her. He looked at her saying he was sorry, that he ended things with Lexi. Vanessa accused him of sleeping with her. Ryan swore up and down he didn't touch Lexi, that he didn't want Vanessa to leave him. He said he was wanted Vanessa, their marriage and family. Vanessa went to their truck, and Ryan got in his work van. They drove home. When in the house Vanessa got ready for bed to sleep on the couch, Ryan told her to come to bed and sleep in their bed. It was the first time in over a year he asked her to come in their bed.

For the next couple months Ryan would text Vanessa telling her where he was, if he was working late that night. She send photos from his job as well to prove it. Vanessa never asked him for this, she told him. She work on marriage with him, she give him complete trust again. She made no rules for him, she told him she raising kids, not raising and adult man. Ryan would be nice to her at times, but he still had his moments and digs at her. She was still going to the gym, Ryan would eve watch the kids at night when she go to the gym. He say to her sure I'll babysit the kids if it means your going to workout. He tell her to workout harder than she wasn't losing weight fast enough. 

2 month later at the end of September Ryan snapped at Vanessa, she was beside herself, he ended up pushing her into the wall again. He left the house, and didn't come back for hours. When he came back later that night he said sorry he had gotten text from Lexi. He missed her and didn't know what he wanted. He wanted his marriage, his family but he wanted Lexi too. He begged Vanessa to give him time and basically have his marriage and a relationship Lexi. Vanessa went numb and said fine whatever. She loved him even at his worst, more than anything she wanted her family intact for her kids.