Intentions ~ SapnapxReader

4,336 Miles

⚠️TW: Mentions of suicide and mental breakdown.⚠️

~Y/n POV~

It's been quite a while since my incident, and I still haven't told George. I've been avoiding his calls, because I can't face him just yet. My phone starts ringing. Speak of the devil. I hesitantly pick up the phone.

*Ring, ring, ring, ri-*

Y/n- H-hello..?

G- Y/N! Why the hell are you ignoring me? What is your PROBLEM? Hearing him scream set me off. I started crying.

G- Y/n? are you ok? What happened?

Y/n- I'm so sorry George... I just- I just couldn't face you... At this time, Sapnap was walking by my room, hearing me sobbing into my phone. He swung the door open. I look at him with pleading eyes, and hold the phone out to Nick.

*Speaking to Sapnap*

Y/n- I-I can't tell him. Please do it for m-me... Sapnap grabs the phone from me and walks out of the room, as to not bring it up in front of me. I lay on my side, hugging my pillow into my chest and face. I sat there crying which seemed like an eternity. I brought my face out of my pillow, and look at my packed open suitcase. We leave tomorrow. I calm myself down as I watch Sapnap walk in handing me back the phone. A part of me wished the phone call was ended. It wasn't.

Y/n- H-hello? I said through sniffles.

G- Y/n, I am so sorry. I didn't mean to yell at you. what happened was terrible, and when you get here tomorrow, I'm giving you the biggest hug in the entire world.

Y/n- George, I miss you so much. I just want to be home again... Sapnap puts his hand on my thigh, drawing small circles with his thumb. He really does know how to calm me down. I eventually put my head on his shoulder.

G- Y/n, I know you want to come home, but you're strong. I know you can do it, and I know Nick loves you to death. If you knew the way he talks about you in private... He would be devastated if you came home and didn't go back to America.

Y/n- George, I love you so much... I wouldn't have the willpower to do what I do without you.

G- I love you too. I'll see you tomorrow. Don't forget how strong you are. Make sure to not miss your flight. 

Y/n- Bye Georgie.

G- Bye, n/n. I hang up the phone and sigh into Nick's chest. I could feel the warmth radiating off of him. He has no idea how much he means to me. If only he knew... I don't think I'd be here right now without him. Not only was I in love with this man, but I was utterly obsessed with him. I got up, and I stood between his legs. He grabbed my waist with one hand, the other wiping away my tears. I smiled down at him, with a loving smile. I sat down on his lap facing him. I put my hands on his shoulders, resting my forehead on his. I closed my eyes. I think he could tell I needed some quiet time. He stood up, and he held me up by under my thighs. He laid me down on the bed, covering my body in the covers. He started to let go of me, but I didn't want him to go.

Y/n- Please don't go...

N- I'll be back, princess, I need to go pack. I gave him a weary smile, and he walked out of the room. He closed my door. About 5 minutes later, I heard a knock. I told them to come in. To my surprise, it was Clay. 

C- You doing ok? 

Y/n- Yeah. You all packed?

C- Yeah. I guess I just wanted to come talk, I guess.