If she only knew ~ Cameron Dallas

Chapter 18

Nicki pov -

And that's when I saw him, Cam. Ohmygod what am I going to say? Without knowing what I was going to say, I walked over to Cam. He was talking to Taylor.

'Hey Cam.' I said. He didn't say anything. 'Hey Nicki how are you?' Taylor asked me. 'Euhm Good I guess?' I said more as a question. 'I'm sorry for your lost.' He told me, I nodded my head and thanked him. He gave me a hug, damn he smelled nice.

When we let the hug go, Cam was gone. Ulg what's wrong with this boy? 'NICKSSSS!' I heard a girl yell. I turned around to see the one and only Lox. 'LOX!' I yelled and I ran over to her to give her a big hug.

'Hey Nicks, Im sorry for you lost.' She said while hugging me, I thanked her. 'Are you okay?' She asked me once we sat down on our bed. We decided to share a room because Cams weird actions. 'Well Lox I am okay, the question should be, is Cameron okay?' I said, Lox gave me a strange look. 'What do you mean?' She asked, I told Lox everything, her jaw dropped. 'Wow.' Was all she could say.

'You don't have any advise do you?' I said. 'Nicks, I'm love doc Lox, I always have an advise.' She said with a really weird voice which made me laugh. 'You go talk to Cameron. Now.' She said, walked over to the door and opened it. I walked out laughing, she's crazy.

I knocked Camerons door, after a few seconds he opened. 'Hi.' I awkwardly said. 'Sup.' He said and opened the door. I walked in and sat down on his bed. 'Cam why have you been ignoring me the past week.' I said with tears forming in my eyes. Cameron didn't say anything. I let out a deep sigh. 'You know Cam, If you want to play it like this. We'll play it like this. Bye.' I said and I walked out. 'Nicki wait please!' He yelled but I kept walking...

Cam kept yelling, I ignored him. I wish he would run after me, push me against a wall and kiss me all over. But ofcourse he didn't, why would he? Because I'm his girlfriend? But he doesn't act like I'm his.

I walked out of the hotel, it's raining but I don't care. I walk trough the rain over to a pub. Alcohol is all I need right now. When I walked in I only saw a few men, I think they're in their late 40's. I walked over to the bar and sat down on a high stool.

A woman, I think in her late 50's walked over to me. 'What can I get you?' She asked. 'I don't know ma'am, something that works against a broken heart.' I told her, she put her hand on mine. 'He or she isn't worth it girl. If he or she doesn't treat you the way you deserve to be treat, he or she isn't worth it.' She said and she gave some coffee.

Her quote made me think, yeah she's right. But normally Cam would treat me like I deserve.

'Do you love yourself?' She asked. This made me think again. 'I don't know...' I said. 'Love yourself first.' She said and walked away. Wow wise words. I drank my coffee, paid and left the pub.

I walked back to my hotel, once I was in my room I laid down on my bed. After a few minutes Lox walked out of the bathroom.

'And? How did it go?' She asked. Ulgh I don't feel like talking about this, so I think I'll just tell her the positive thing. 'For the first time ever, I survived a heartbreak without alcohol.' I said and smiled at my own words. I'm weird. 'Oh Nicks, I'm so sorry, I never should have send you.' Lox said, I sat up and sighed. 'It's okay, movie night?' 'MOVIE NIGHT!!!' She yelled, we picked out TFIOS. Saddest movie ever, but I wish someone would love me like Augustus loves Hazel...