the unwanted wife (completed)

The Unwanted Wife 13

“ang rason kung bakit si  leah ang naging  bridesmaid was because sya lang nakikita ni dad  appropriate for sa mga pinsan ko na pwede sa kadal ko. Di ba how can they do this to me sarili kong kasal di ako pwedeng magdesisyon. Pero kung kiabigan ko lang tlaga sya I doubt she’d have fit the bill!”

“It turns me out na wala akong karapatang magdesisyon para sa sarili ko.. You’ve been spoiled and you’ve had everything money could buy…”

“Except love, ang pagmamahal ng asawa at nang tatay ko parang suntik sa buwan ko makukuha. Apparently I’m not quite worthy of that.”

“You’re feeling sorry para sa sarili  and pagod na pagod na akong manlimos nang oagmamahal mula sa kanila..

“Yes, I’m feeling sorry for myself,” she acknowledged bitterly. “And it’s very liberating. Lahat gianawa ko na. Naging sunod sunuran ako kay dad  pero di parin pala sapat.. Minsan naiisip ko tuloy desrve ko ba tlaga  ang mga nangyayari sa buhay ko... After all, this two  powerful men as I  thought that I wasn’t worthy para sa pagmamahal nila. Sinu ba nman ako para mahalin nila im just a useless bratt? 

Simula nung naisip kung di naman ako may kasalan . Di ako yung problema dito …at least my motives for marrying him were honest; I stupidly believed that I loved you. Yours were less than stellar, weren’t they? They certainly had nothing to do with love.

“They had everything to do with love,”I  suddenly thundered,

Between our silence  I  abruptly  stared up at him..

“Just not love for you.” he blinked up at me , with hes  green eyes the only color in hes deathly pale face.

“What does that mean?” I  asked through barely moving lips.

“Love for whom?”I  referring to Jessica?

Ganun Nya ba tlaga kamahal ang babaeng yun.. Earth to  Tin. Dinasaktan mo lang ang sarili mo  i muttered to my self..

“wala kang pakialam ,” he grated furiously, a muscle working frantically in his jaw.

"wala naman tlaga akong pakialam ” I  nodded bitterly.

“It has nothing to do with me,  nasasaktan ako ganun ako ka apektado Pat.

You want something from me pero di mo naman kayang suklian pabalim yun Pat . Pagod na pagod na ako. Katawan ko kaya kahit anung desisyong gawin ko wala ka nang pakialam dun

“I’m your wife …”

“No. You are not. Your just my wife in paper,” he interrupted in a voice thickened with hatred and tears.

“You have never been my wife .

“Pat sandali …”dali dali kung hinawakan ang kamay nya  to prevent him from running off.

“I have to go, pagka sabi ko nun lumabas na agad ako..
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“I will leave now…it is how it should be.” With that he dropped my  arm and walked out, leaving him..

Pag uwi ko nang bahay. Masyadong madilim,

Pagkatapos kung maligo. Humiga na ako sa kama ko..

Di namamalayang nakatulog na pala. Pagdilat ko ng mata ko mainit na sikat ang bumungad sakin. So napahimbing ang tulog ko kagabi..

. I  was back in the master suite anung gjnagawa ko dito.

I  peeked down myself   relieved to note that I still had on the T-shirt I  had worn to bed.

I  checked the clock and groaned when I discovered na nakatulog pala ako ng sobrang himbing gosh alas 10 na pala .

Dali dali na akong bumangon. Pero pagtayo ko bigla akong nahilo..

Dahan dahan akong humakbang pabalik sa kama.. At nanatili muna nang ilang minuto..

. I  frowned slightly dahan kong inaalala kung anong nangyari kagabi

Shett di pala ako kumain kagabi thats explain kung bakit  ako  ngayon nahihilo.

…maya maya pay tumunog ang cellphone ko..

Ilang araw na pala akong hindi kumakain the last time na kumain ako is nasa bahay ako ni leah.

Now I was paying the price for all those missed meals.

Tumayo na ako at nagshower I decided na lumabas para itreat ang sarili ko ng masarap na brunch..

Monday pala ngayo   day off ni manang ,

Wala nga pala akong kasamang katulong sa bahay ko today
, yes bahay ko regalo sakin ng mom ko before she died 5 years ago..

.  So what now Tin.
.

Less than an hour later I  was dry-heaving over the commode in the downstairs guest bathroom.

I naaamoy ko yung bacon at itlog  sa baba teka akala ko ba day ofg ni manang ngayon.. Well thanks to manang atleast di ako gutom ngayon..

After my stomach stopped revolting, I stumbled out onto the patio,

Habang nakatitig sa malaking swimming pool na nasa harapan ko...