the unwanted wife (completed)

The Unwanted Wife 14

“No…” I  whispered, habang nkatitig sa dulong bahagi ng pool, where the aquamarine water of the pool seemed to merge with the darker blue of the ocean and the cobalt blue of sky. “No, no, no, no…no…please, God! No…”

I  buried  my face in my  hands and rocked back and forth slightly. My  system was just off-kilter because of the gut-wrenching events of the last forty-eight hours.

Nalipasan lng ako ng gutom. Yun lang yun kaya ako nahihilo hindi …ako pwedeng mabuntis masyado lng siguro akong  overreacting.

Masyado na yata akong minamalas ,habang pinipilit kong ayusin ang kasal na to.

Sinusubukan kung alalahanin kung kelan ako huling dinatnan..

Masyado akong stress lately kaya siguro ganito naaapektuhan ang period ko.. so that was not the most reliable way to gauge anything. She got up gingerly and was relieved when the movement didn’t upset her equilibrium.

Habang humahakbang ako papalapit sa kusina. Medyo nahihilo pa ako.. But thankfully di nakaapekto ang hilo ko sa gutom... stayed as steady as a rock.

Huminga ako ng malalim ,  at humakbang ulit papalapit sa stove para kunin ang palayok  averting my eyes as I deposited the congealed mess that would have been my  meal into the waste disposal unit.

Sa halip gumawa nlang ako ng  black tea and dry toast, determinedly putting her irrational fear of pregnancy out of her head.

Pagkatapos kung kumain, lumabas ako sa may attic. Na ginawa kumg work room at nagpatugtog  habang nagtattrabaho ako ..

Nawawala ako sa sarili ko pagnandito ako nakakalimutan ko lahat ng stress 

Pero ngaun di ako makapag focus ,dahil kung anu anu ang pumapasok sa isip ko..

Alam ko kung anu ang gusto ko. Pero di ko sya ksyang  ipinta. Umupo ako sa harap ng drawing board na di ko namamalayan matagal na pala akong nakatitig dun...

I rest my  elbow on the tilted board with her delicate chin in one hand habang nakatitig sa papel  the  willed the image into existence. Itinaas ko ang aking lapis habang naiiling nalang  sa sobrang fustration. Binitawan ko na ang lapis sa ibabaw ng lamesa.

“Pau .” The quiet voice coming from behind her sent hes flying out of her seat in alarm; she half turned, half crouched in a defensive position..

Naalimpungatan ako bago maalala kung kanino boses..

“.

“At bakit wala ka pa sa bahay at anung ginagawa mo dito. Di ba sabi ko sayo ayokong umuuwo ka ng gabi na.. Palagi naman syang pumapasok  ng 7 sa umaga and well bumabalik tlaga sya minsan madaling araw na 

“wag mo nga akong  hawakan !” he  snapped impatiently when I  lifted a pair of cutters that had cost the earth to import.

“You design house” I  whispered in astonishment, his eyes lifting to meet hers, .

“why do you care??

,”  It’s just a hobby…so…” Hhis
voice petered off as he continued to flip through her portfolio with an absorbed frown, occasionally lingering on a page before moving on.

>7 gold earring, pendant, and ring set that ginawa ko para kay leah at John years ago.

“Yes, but they’re John design. I just made them

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“Uncut precious stones are insanely expensive. Semiprecious stones are cheap and easy to find, and if they’re damaged in any way while I’m setting them, it’s no big deal.” He grunted again, barely listening to me as he went back to flipping through her portfolio.

“at dito sa walang kwentang bagay na to inuubos mo ang magnhapon nasan  He looked back up at her for confirmation.

“Well,masasabi kong kahit bata kayang, di ako maka upo ng my I can hardly sit around and twiddle my thumbs, can I?” kinancel ko lahat he  challenged, me  and his eyes flickered slightly. he snorted disdainfully. He probably thought she spent her days shopping and lounging around in beauty salons.

“bakit mo alam ang lugar na to.
“Just one more thing you never bothered to learn about me,” I said dismissively.

“Just one more detail you didn’t offer about yourself,” he responded fiercely, and her eyes snared his in challenge.